" Lesley are you alright?" Jessie asked carefully
" Honestly Jessie.... I don't think I can ever be fully okay again... but I hope that I can try my best for my girls..." Lesley replied but fought hard to keep herself together
" You just take your time, and I am there whenever you need me." Jessie replied with a hug while helping Lesley get out of the car.
" I wish there was another way to get up to my office without going to the second floor. I mean I know that I have to face that floor at some point but every time I think about it, all I see is Rick's face and when he just looked up at me and then his eyes...... Oh Jessie I don't think I can do this.... I don't know if I can face it.... "
" Don't push yourself Lesley if you aren't ready...." Jessie replied
" No I've been home long enough since everything.... I need to get my life back to a low but stable point... I feel that I owe it to Rick and his memory" Lesley looked towards Jessie and added " But I do think I maybe should see Gail.... professionally I mean.... I think it would help me try to find even alittle bit of peace if I can work with her to work through it."
" I'll see about getting that set when Gail checks in. For now you have to just relax and stop trying to push yourself. I don't want to see you here in the hospital as a patient not right now." Jessie barked.
" I know Jessie and I'm sorry... I just... I don't know how I'm gonna deal with all of this." Lesley slightly turned away.
Steve and Audrey had stepped over to see that Lesley was okay given the circumstances and later Monica stopped by and did the same.
" Guys really... I'm gonna be okay and I appreciate that you have taken a moment to see if I'm alright... Truthfully I don't know that I am ever gonna have a normal day when working again after all that happened and what happened to Rick... but I do know that he would expect me to try to keep it going for the sake of the twins and myself so that's what I'm gonna do."
" Lesley we understand what you're going through, but we don't think you have to push yourself with everything you've been through" Steve laid a hand gently on Lesley's shoulder
" I know that Steve, thank you. I just don't think I should push off getting back to work more than I have already."
" Well I hope that you can find some peace Lesley.... And I mean that.." Monica replied and laid a hand on Lesley's shoulder
" Thank you Monica I appreciate that" Lesley replied
" Steve, we have a meeting starting in a minute. We better get going." Monica looked towards Steve
" Yes we should.... Lesley you take an easy.... And let me know if you need anything" Steve turned towards Lesley and walked off with Monica
" Thanks Steve I will." Lesley stayed with Jessie until Gail had checked in but in the meantime started to feel alittle bit nauseous
" Lesley, are you feeling alright?"
" I feel like I'm gonna be sick... I don't know if that's a good thing or if it's something to be concerned about" Lesley replied
" Well, is this the first time?" Jessie asked
" Honestly Jessie it's been a good few weeks now but I've been able to hide especially when I've been with the girls and Rick, he knew but he didn't really catch on much about it I was gonna try to talk to Rick about it after we celebrated the girls' birthday, but I was never given the chance...." Lesley admitted
