ᴛᴏxɪᴄ ʟᴏᴠᴇ <3/ ᴀsʜᴛʀᴀʏ

𝐹𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑢𝑝 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠．

It's was two weeks after the party and ashtray has been a little...different since and I don't know why he's just being really dry when he talks to me I thought we were getting along but I guess not.

I haven't talked to rue and maddy or really anyone besides fez in the past two weeks ,me and fez have grown way closer he's actually really sweet I'm starting to see him as a brother figure I really trusted him which was weird because I never trust people this soon into knowing them but fez was different I knew he wouldn't judge me for anything I said or did and I liked that about him

Me and my mom and Leo have been fighting uncontrollably lately ,it's like every time I do anything it's never good enough, and tbh it's really fucking stressing me out , I've started smoking weed more tho it's helping me calm down from it all.

Maddy invited me lexi Cassie and rue to her house today I haven't seen them in so long and I needed to catch up with them

(I'll be changing the way I do the speech for scenes like this when there is a lot of talking)

Me: "hey girls" I walked into her room

Maddy: "omg hey bitch" maddy pulled me into a hug

All the girls greeted me then I sat down on the bed next to rue

Me: hey rue

Rue: wsp vic

Me:not much hey where have you been I haven't seen u around in like two weeks

Rue: yea sorry I've been hanging with elliot and jules a lot lately

Me:oh I haven't seen elliot in so fucking long I miss that dude

Rue: yea he was talking about u saying he misses u nd shit

Me: awh that's sweet I'm gonna text him later but anyways what's going on with u and jules

Rue: well a lot has happend she like fell in love with this guy online and she would not stop talking about him but then she ended up meeting up with him one day after school and then she came crying saying he didn't look like his pictures but now I think that there's something going on between us because we like kissed and we are just getting really close so I think I might ask her out soon

Me:omg that is literally so fucking cute I'm so happy for you rue" I gave rue a quick hug

Rue: thanks vic

Me: so maddy how's things with ur cunt of a boyfriend nate

Maddy : idk we are broken up but he is asking me to go to the New Year's Eve party with him

Me: Ugh not this shit again he's literally so toxic mads you can do so much better

Maddy: I know vic I know but I'm so in love with him

Me: I know mads but the longer u stay away from him the easier it makes it to not go back

Cassie: I agree with Vicky , mads he's not good for you

I nodded in agreement

Lexi: listen we all know I'm not the best with relationships but I mean nate has never actually physically hurt her and if he makes her happy then what's the harm in it

Me: you know I agree but mads does he really make u that happy?

Maddy: I don't know I mean- I am happy when I'm with him but at the same time I don't know if all the good is worth the many many bad shit that happens

Cassie: just follow your heart , if u end up with him just let it happen forget about the logic of it all just listen to ur heart

Maddy: yea your right thank you girls I love you all so much