Everything And Nonsense

Pandemic

2020 was a real shitshow, huh?

January: The beginning of COVID-19. The reason we all have to wear masks everywhere. Just like a plague. I was so confused. Schools closed, stores were out of hand sanitizer, water bottles, toilet paper, you name it, and everyone panicked.

February: Bush fires in Australia. Yeah. It was horrifying, forests went down quick. I felt sad for everyone involved.

March: Does anyone even remembee the murder hornets? No? Didn't think so, fuck your stupid ass little bees.

April: What even happened here? Whatever. I don't remember, all I know is my sister turned 5 in a crappy pandemic and I felt bad for her, but she seemed happy.

May: Nothing to note here, I don't remember much. Didn't the government shut down at this time?

June: I don't remember. Fuck you.

July: Oh. Oh my god. So I don't remember what happened in the world here, but I do know about my cousin. Now, me and Thomas used to despise each other, but after many years we were inseparable. We always hung out, and he would stay and swim in the pool with us. He was one of my favorite people in the world. But, of course with anyone I care about, he had to be taken away. I felt like something was wrong. My mom told me that my cousin was in the hospital after "accidentally hanging himself". Accidentally. How? Why? A few days later, they took him off of life support. I was very distant from my family now, and just didn't speak. I stayed in my room, desperately trying to have something good happen. I regretfully got Reddit, shocker I know, and searched communities because my cousin and I had, at some point, decided to make friends to play squads with on Fortnite. I decided to make a community based on our favorite season, doubting it'd take off. AgencySquad. Over 400 members. I spent a lot of time talking to other people. And then I met him. More on him later. He'll have a whole chapter.

August: School was beginning. I was a high school student now. I still continue to hate this place, but who doesn't hate school?

September: Nothing much happened. Turned 14 I guess. Suicidal thoughts and not speaking to anyone as usual. I hated life with a passion. Always takes people away.

October: The community was doing well, and I started liking this guy. Unfortunately, a guy started liking me. It was stupid.

November: Started dating said guy I liked. He was fine for a while until he started to do some awful shit in February, more on that later.

December:

Now, I don't remember much. Maybe all that head banging took a toll on my brain. Things were absolutely rocky and horrible. And it, of course, only got worse. I'm so used to things getting worse. It keeps going to this day. Am I a pessimist? Lighten up, Maddi. Whatever. I ended up making friends with a guy named Zach. And oddly enough, things got better? What did he do? He fixed things? He was so kind and loving. He still is, he's an absolute sweetheart. Zach ends up being important as well. Not the guy I was talking about with the dedicated chapter, but a best friend. There is something about him that I can't explain. Something that no matter how mad we make each other, I can't make myself not talk to him. It's like a magnet and metal. 2020 was horrid, but he and Zach made it better. Eventually, everything turned to shit once more as something serious happened February 2021, and I felt like my parents didn't love me anymore. They didn't speak to me unless it was to yell. And my then-boyfriend-now-ex made it so much worse. I hate that bitch. But who cares now? I don't. On May 25th, 2021, Zach and I got together. Something good. Finally.