My Best Friend's Diary

April 10th, 2011

6:15 am

I really like the adults. They really like me too. They're always waving and smiling at me, and one girl made me a friendship bracelet! It's a bit too short. I have to re-learn their names. I'm absolutely dreading breakfast. The only enjoyable part was the egg. Fuck, my pants barely fit around my fat ass. Can't wait to lose all this shit. IT"S SOO NASTY!! It jiggles. I miss being 107. I really really do. I think I was happiest at 115 though. I can get there again, it'll just take some time.

3:25 pm

Samson was killed. I think it was yesterday. He was hit by a car. Part of me died under that wheel too. I cried soo hard. It hasn't fully hit me yet. Mary went home. She was older, I liked her. She was sweet too. The girl who gave me my bracelet is named Laura. I made Sammy origami.They put a tube up Brian's nose. I feel kinda bad. Kinda jealous too lol. I am now on level 3, which means I can select my own meals and go outside. I miss Samson. I'm never going to see him again. The last time I saw him was on Friday. He's dead. Gone. Underground. He was such a great friend. Companion. Brother. He was my Sammy cat. I wonder if mom knows. Samson. Is. Dead. It doesnt register. New episode of Drag Race tonight. SIgh, I'll miss it. :( Oh Samson. No. Dad said he died instantly.

7:31 pm

I went outside for the first time in a week. It was the greatest 5 minutes since I've been here.They took the tube out of Brian's nose. He threw up. I can't get Samson off my mind. I wanna keep crying, but I can't. Then I envision him sleeping next to me in the hospital bed.God I miss him so much. Dad wants to get another cat. No one could hold a candle to Samson. Every thing we went through, we did it together. For 12 years, he's been my brother. He's helped me through the roughest years of my life. With unconditional and bountiful love. God do I love that pussycat, please let this be a dream that I'll wake up from soon.