I've Always Been Alone

Chapter 3

[Warning: suicidal thoughts. It's short, but it's there. If you ever feel that way, PLEASE get help.]

*Dust's POV*

They're dead. All of them. They're dead and I'm alone with Papyrus. Or, what's left of him at least.

Even his ghost isn't whole. Just a floating head. Screaming at me.

I killed him. I'm a murderer. I'm an awful brother. I'm worthless. I should die. Just like everyone else.

I start crying. I'm weak. I'm disgusting. I'm worthless. I'm no better than the human. I should die. Join my brother and friends in death. Be free from the suffocating guilt, loneliness, and dust.

There's dust everywhere. In the air, on the snow, on my clothes, in the water, in the labs, in Grillby's, on my h a n d s.

Why shouldn't mine join theirs? They were so much more then me. They were innocent and pure. Now their dead. If people so much better then me suffered this, why shouldn't I?

I have no answer. I'm going to do it. After lunch though. I need one last taste of the ketchup I used to love so much. I need to read Papyrus's favorite book one last time. Tell one last joke to the door at the ruins. Look at the 'stars' in waterfall. O n e l a s t t i m e.

*Time skip*

As I sit near the water looking up, I let one last tear fall. I say goodbye to my brother's ghost. I am ready.

*Bloop*

....What the heck was that?

I stand up. "Hello?"

"Hello."

There was a black skeleton in front of me. He was covered with goopy stuff that was dripping all over the place and had 4 tentacles. He was also short. Like, really short.

"Who the heck are you?"

"I am Nightmare, King of nightmares and negativity. You currently have the strongest negativity in the multiverse."

"Ok? Why are you here?"

"I'm making a team. Would you like to be a member?"

"...what?" A team? What is this? "Why do you need a team? Why would you want me of all people? I'm literally a murderer."

"I know. We're all murderers too. Like I said, you have the strongest negativity in the multiverse. If you were to join, you would help me and whoever else I recruit spread negativity across the multiverse." He grinned. "And, no offense, it's not like you have anything better to do."

Ok, but like, when you say it like that, how am I supposed to not take offense?

"You're not wrong but I'm still offended. I'll join. Just get me out of here."

"Ok! You're a lot less needy then the other one. I had to set up a deal with a universe, overthrow a ruler, and give him food."

"Oh. That's nice I guess."

He open a portal. I'm going to be free! Free from all of the dust, guilt, and loneliness!

"Oh, before we go, you need a new name. We don't need everyone having the same name."

Uh... I have no idea what to name myself. I'll just go with whatever comes to my mind.

"Dust." Dang it! The whole point of leaving was to get away from that!

Oh well.

*Dreamy boi*

The villagers are so nice! They gave him candy and toys for his birthday! They even let him have a day off from his chores! They're the nicest friends ever!

He's the best guardian of positivity ever. He makes all of the villagers happy and guards mom at night. Some of the villagers are... confused at why he has to go back to the tree instead of staying with them. They try to get him to stay always. The apples have to come first though. They hold all emotions after all.

Today was really fun. Dream got to play tag and hide-and-seek all day. At night, they put candles on cake and sang to him. There wasn't enough for him to actually get a piece but that's ok. It's the thought that counts and besides, he has to make sure the villagers are happy. It's his job!

He will admit though, sometimes he gets a little overwhelmed by everything. There's so much he has to do in just one day! Sometimes he is so tired he almost falls asleep before he gets back to the tree. That would be bad. Who would protect mom?

Even though he's supposed to be positive, sometimes he fails. On days when he's overwhelmed, he hides in the forest to cry. He hates it. He can't let anyone know he failed. He needs to be perfect.

The adults said so. And adults know everything. They told him that too. They're so smart. They teach him a lot about how to be the best guardian. He's proud to say he's a fast learner.

Someday he will be strong enough to stay positive everyday. Until then, he'll just have to make sure no one finds out.

[Ok so... I was supposed to be doing my homework but I did this instead. Oops.]