DM #4: Ares Madriaga

Kabanata 12

Kabanata 12

Attempted

He wants a relationship with me. Iyon ang laman ng isip ko sa mga sumunod na araw. It's just too much for me to process. I'm not even sure if he likes me, or he's just demanding for a label because of what happened. 

Hindi ko alam kung bakit binabagabag pa ako nito kung una pa lang, wala naman akong planong makipagrelasyon sa kanya.

I don't want a relationship with him because of my father, not just because I'm engaged. Hindi ko iyon sinabi sa kanya kaya sa ngayon siguro iyon ang pinaniniwalaan niya kahit halos wala naman siyang pakialam sa ideyang iyon.

He's also aware that I'm engaged, but it didn't stop him. Hindi na ako magugulat kung alam niyang para lang ang engagement sa negosyo. Dean Andrada is obviously not my boyfriend. Walang magkarelasyon na hindi nagkikita kahit nasa iisang lugar lang. Maybe that got Ares aware that I'm not in a relationship to have the guts to demand a label from me.

Hindi talaga ako makapaniwala sa demands niya kahit paano ko balik-baliktarin ang utak ko. Kung makaakto siya, mukhang ang virginity niya pa ang nakuha ko. It was like it was my fault that I touched him, when in the first place he had the advantage!

It's out of context, but his actions towards me are almost taking responsibility for a woman who's pregnant with his child. There's no way he could impregnate me. Masyadong imposible...

Naging abala ako sa mga nakalipas na araw kaya hindi rin kami masyadong nagkikita. But that doesn't mean our connections were gone. He would still call or text me every day to ask if I had eaten already or if I had returned home to my condo.

He's the only one who's initiating to keep our connection alive. Pero siguro, kasama na rin ako sa nag-iinitiate dahil sinasagot ko rin ang mga text at tawag niya kahit maiikli lang. It's just rude not to say anything.

Ngayon na nagde-demand siya ng label sa akin, mas napapagtanto ko na ang koneksyon na mayroon kami ngayon ay para na ring magkarelasyon. Pero iniisip ko rin na ganito rin naman siya sa akin dati kaya medyo walang pinagkaiba. Pero kung mas iisipin ko, simula pa lang ay mukha na kaming magkarelasyon na hindi ko lang napapansin.

The way he guides me as I walk. The way he speaks softly whenever I say something to him. The way he's patient with me whenever I'm mad. The way his arms snaked my waist and... the way he touched me. Everything about us only shows how different our relationship is compared with being friends.

Pakiramdam ko mas lalo lang akong napapagod bawat araw dahil sa kakaisip tungkol kay Ares. I want to divert my attention to my job, but there's something about it that I can't seem to ignore.

Papa arrived in Manila today, together with Tita Martha and Zoey. Papa decided to continue his job in the house today so that he can at least rest from being jet lagged.

I want to visit them, but I need to attend few meetings until dinner. Siguro pagkatapos ng dinner meeting ay didiretso na lang ako sa bahay para makamusta sila Papa.

It was 7 pm when I left the building and drove my way to a restaurant kilometers away from my office. I was in the middle of driving when my phone rang. I looked at the caller and answered when I saw that it's Ares.

"Hello,"

"Have you eaten?' paos na sabi niya sa kabilang linya.

Tumikhim ako nang naramdamang medyo naging kakaiba iyon.

"Just woke up from a nap?" I asked him instead.

"Hmm. Yeah,"

Natahimik ako. He said last night that he will be having a long surgery that will probably take him 12 hours by early morning. Mukhang iyon ang rason kung bakit siya nakatulog.