DM #4: Ares Madriaga

Kabanata 28

Kabanata 28

Forgiven

I don't know how to explain myself. Napaghandaan ko ang conference pero ang bahaging ito ay hindi. Simula pa lang ay alam ko nang magagalit siya, pero pilit kong binalewala dahil sa ikakabuti rin namin iyon. But after the conference and with him standing in a distance suddenly intimidates me.

I want to explain myself, but for some reason, I don't know how to say it properly. Maybe because I know that even if I explain myself, he will still be mad.

I can feel the intensity of his eyes from where I'm standing. At doon pa lang, pakiramdam ko ay walang magiging tama na eksplenasyon sa kanya. Even when I have a purpose, it won't be acceptable because it won't change the fact that I lied to him.

Rafa spoke again, confused on why I'm not moving yet. Mabibigat ang paa na nagtungo ako palapit sa kanya at hindi na nilingon pa si Rafa.

His eyes stayed fixed on me, as if he knew I was heading straight to him. Like a predator awaiting its prey, he just watched and waited. I felt like I was floating, I can't even feel my legs walking anymore.

He's being surrounded by the people from the company that I saw earlier. They're talking to him, and I don't even know if he's listening. Hindi ko alam at sa pagkakataong ito, wala na akong pakialam.

The four people around him distanced themselves when they saw me approaching Ares. They greeted me and I smiled back before they left.

I looked at Ares and smiled at him innocently. My heart is beating so fast, but I chose to ignore that. Umigting ang kanyang panga habang tinitignan ako.

He's so intimidating, but strangely, something excites me knowing he's mad. Maybe it's the thrill of curiosity about what he will do to me after what I've done.

"You're back so soon," mahinang sabi ko.

I tiptoed to kiss his cheek, and before my foot fully touched the ground, he wrapped his arm around my waist and kissed me on the lips fully. Ramdam ko ang sabik at gigil.

I held his arm and answered his kisses. Lumipad kung saan ang isip ko at halos hindi ko na mahagilap pa nang humiwalay siya. Hinabol ko pa ang kanyang labi pero hindi nagtagumpay.

"Please," I breathed.

He smirked when he saw my desperate expression.

"After misbehaving, you want me now huh?"

My face heated and tried to push him away to save a face. He let me go but his arm around my waist remained. Halos nakalimutan kong may mga taong nanonood sa amin. I just saw him this morning, and I don't even know why I miss him so much.

I suddenly felt embarrassed that I was already acting like I hadn't done anything to him. At mas lalong nakakahiya dahil alam niya ang gusto kong mangyari. But all I know right now is that he won't easily give me what I want.

"Let's go home," mahina at malambing na sabi ko.

His jaw clenched before he smirked at me. His eyes are so sharp, I could feel his frustration and madness behind it.

"That's fucking it? You made me damn worried." mariin na sabi niya.

I don't know how can I exactly handle his rage. Dahil alam kong hindi lang iyon simpleng galit, may halo nang pag-aalala. The only thing I could do right now is to assure him that I'm doing fine after what I did.

I caressed his muscled chest and looked up at him. Tuluyan ko nang kinalimutan ang mga taong nasa paligid na posibleng nakatingin.

"I'm sorry. All I want is to finally live in peace with you. That's the only way I know for us to have it. I didn't tell you because I knew you wouldn't agree with this plan." mahinang sabi ko.