BLACKOUT

Chapter 15- one last time

One. A broken teenage wolf whose duty was to kill those he thought were powerful.
Two. A broken father of five whose duty was to kill those he thought were powerful.
Three. A broken teenage goat whose duty was to kill those he thought were powerful.
Four. A broken aunt whose duty was to kill those he thought were powerful.
Five. The two siamese whose duty was to cause the reason for those murders.
Six. The ones who chase those crying children of the relatives of the ones whose duty was to kill those he thought were powerful.
Seven. The victims of those whose duty was to kill those he thought were powerful.
Eight. A family of rulers in which they are worshipped by a city that's full of those whose duty was to kill those he thought were powerful.
Nine. A broken world full of disastrous people under his orders because he wanted what he couldn't have.
Ten. The main victim of [redacted] whose duty was to kill those who he thought were powerful becomes the one to kill herself because she was under his orders.
A feeling of regret is what I felt. I don't know why, but I did. What was I supposed to regret?
I felt numb. My body felt so numb I didn't know what to do. I was strapped on these chains more hefty than ever. My heart was pounding. The air in the room tasted and smelt horrible. I was afraid, I was quivering. I shouldn't have been afraid. Nothing bad was going to happen was it?
"These brainwashed victims are fucked aren't they."
Nobody I knew was here. I was put in a room with strangers. It went from silent to violent. I wanted to leave and I wanted to cry but my eyes felt too weak for that.
But I ended up crying. My tears felt colder and more thin. I started to sweat much more than I usually do. I had no shirt on. My chest and my arms were bare. My arm that had the springlock scars had some cuts that were peeled open. The room was so bright I couldn't handle it. The lights made me cry much more than I wanted to. I felt so uncomfortable and scared I screamed as loud as I could. The room wasn't actually packed, I just felt claustrophobic from all the chains featured around my whole body.
After about two minutes of screaming someone else came in. They looked like a doctor. It was a brown squirrel with round, black glasses and a white coat on. As they were walking in they pulled gloves on both of their paws and they looked quite agitated.
"Oh shut up will you? He'll come in soon. Okay? They'll come in soon."
I tried to speak but he wouldn't let me.
"Oh so-"
"Don't fucking talk. Not a single word." He says, going to the counter on the sides of the room and tampering around with the instruments. Not a second later both the king and the mayor walked in which urged me to complete shock so I got skitzy again but I didn't scream and I tried my hardest to stay still. It made the springlock scars hurt much more. Crowelle, the doctor and the king headed into the other room to talk. I could barely hear their voices, but I could hear a little bit.
"Yeah we might just not stitch them up because the marble will heal it."
"Yeah that sounds good."
I thought that maybe they were going to investigate the blackouts finally but it was the complete opposite.
I realised that there was a window right in front of me so anyone could walk past and see what was happening.
As I stared at the window the doctor came around and started to unlock the chains but he only unlocked the chains on my ankles. I felt a bit more free and comfortable now. There was no better position I could stay in so I slid around the side and off the table and kneeled on the side, having my arms laid on which were chained to the sides. The table was quite high so my head was just tall enough to rest on it. My tail was laid to the side and in between my legs. My whole body was shaking again.
"Panic, I'll take those chains off later if you promise me you won't hurt any of us and go berserk. Alright?"
I knew I couldn't make any promises but I had to lie. Because if I blamed it on the blackouts I would've caused more havoc.
"I promise."
Both the mayor and Crowelle walked into the room and leaned against the counters on the other side of the table. The doctor started to select the instruments he needed, which included a needle.
I wasn't afraid of needles. My skin had been pierced many times. Including the springlocks.
He placed the plate of equipment on the table to the left side of the room. The two cats stood and watched.
He turned back around to face me and fixed up the gloves again. Then he turned.
"Panic. I have something important to tell you right now. But please do not freak or anything. You promise to not freak out?"
This time I could probably make a promise. I can try to be calm.
"I promise."
"Okay, well, I know that this is going to be hard for you to hear and I just want to make sure that you wont cause chaos for all of us so I'm going to try to tell you in the most lengthy way possible so you can understand. Okay?"
I did start to panic when hearing what he just told me but I tried to calm myself down. The king and Crowelle didn't look too bothered.
"Okay."
He put his paws on the table and clasped them together, then kneeled to match my height. Even though he was a squirrel, he was much taller than what I thought he would be and his head didn't need to rest on the table.
"Alright, Panic. Due to the amount of murders you have committed, we unfortunately can't handle that anymore and cannot have you on this earth until there is way that you are 'fixed.'" He said
"Panic, you are going to be euthanized with a special liquid used to put any animal down. It is what humans used to 'put down' animals if they become too sick. Do not worry, you won't actually be killed. You know how this system works. You can come back home. They just feel that they no longer can handle this situation and are going to leave it for the gods. While you are injected, you will be placed in the marble fluid which sets you into the 'dead by undead zone' and tells the Ivory and Saumbre that you may return to earth when chosen by Zoren, Kaave, Dawn or Dusk. After that, you will have one more chance left until the last death; you can no longer return home to earth and will stay in Saumbre or Ivory. Do you understand?"
I didn't know what I was feeling now. I was angry, sad, scared, everything at the same time I had no idea what to feel.
Was this better or was this worse?
"Fuck! No! What about my family! What about Ava? Everyone! I don't care that it may be temporary, I want to stay! I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry. What did I do wrong? If it's really happening, I deserve this. I deserve this bad ending, No! I don't! Fucking. You. You idiot! Fool! Ugh! No!
My mind was scrambled like the eggs in the pan. I was feeling the same thing at once. I have to admit, I was being dramatic, but I understood my own frustration and anger.
I knew that for whoever led me to feel this way I was going fuck them up so much that there would be no more inch of them in existence and I was going to punish them to the core.
And I did.
"No." I said.
Just no.
"What do you mean 'no' Panic?"
"You have to do it. It's our order. You follow them."
My face was full of tears and I was in so much agony. My head was slumped under the table.
I looked back up at Crowelle and the Mayor. They had no feelings in their faces whatsoever. No life, no mercy.
I stayed on my knees and did what I never knew I would do most. My face was smashed onto the table, facing it and I closed my eyes, grasping my two paws together. I was stuck in a puddle of wet, salty tears.
"No. Please. Please. please. please. please. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Please sir. Please sir. Please forgive me. Please forgive me. please . please. I'm sorry. I never knew this would ever happen. I never meant to hurt your daughters. Please believe me I'll do anything. Anything for you. I don't want to fucking die even if its just fucking saumbre I want to see my family again who's going to properly take care of my brothers and sisters they couldn't even get their basic needs because you took away so much from us. Just please, I beg of you.. Give me a chance."
I tend to repeat the same things and stutter a lot when I'm afraid and anxious.
"No. You took so much from us and now you're doing this? I'll never ever forgive you for what you've done Panic. I'll possibly never get my daughters back because of you. You're a menace to this society and you need to go. I'd love to be able to punish you as much as I want to but I'm done. You're lucky I'm being gentle with you because I'd be going crazy if we weren't here."
That made me burst out crying even more. I never wanted it to be like this. I never wanted to hurt anyone. I wanted to live a normal life like any other teenager but that never will happen. I started to lose hope. I shouldn't have, but I did. I thought that this would be the end. I decided to just accept my fate and go.
"I'm sorry. I'm being overdramatic. It was just a shock." I say, as I stand up.
The doctor walks around and gives me a hug. That felt so comforting and It made me much more calm.
"Okay, I'll put the injection in now. It'll take around ten minutes to settle in. You're going to feel quite a very bad pain in your arm and chest from this okay? But as you're feeling it you'll be in the marble which will soothe it." He says, as I hop on the table.
He puts the needle closer towards my arm and shows me it. It's a lilac-looking kind of purple.
I could feel it piercing my skin and going inside. The metal was cold and sharp. It didn't hurt much. Only felt like a bee sting. But I knew that it would get much worse, even in around five minutes.
Right after the injection, he places it away from the table and onto the other side of the room.
"Ok Panic in just a minute we're going to head for the-"
Suddenly, he turns to face the window.
This wasn't good at all.
Right in front of the window were my friends. But not my school friends, it was Ava, Charlotte, Taro and Jaquelin. Ava appeared to be holding a backpack, well, until she dropped it from shock of course. They were all gobsmacked. They all came right close to the window and started shouting words I was unable to understand. I knew I wouldn't be able to speak with them, but I hoped that someone would explain. They tried to get in but the king came outside and stopped them. It looked like he was explaining everything about what was going to happen with me, which was okay and I wanted them to understand that I was going to be okay, hopefully.
They seemed to be worried but they eventually calmed down a bit. As I was walking I gestured to them that I was going to be fine and Ava responded with a thumbs up.
I was then taken to an old nearby ruin near Centiion Parks woodlands which was filled with other bodies who were being kept too. The room was beautiful. There were gorgeous fancy porcelain designs across the walls that were of Saumbre and Ivory colours and logos. Garland pink roses and vines hung from each pod which they were all laid in. It was a long hallway that was like those 'Japanese' pods that many humans stayed in when they had tours there. Each pod had a special bed-bath filled with a marble liquid the same that Citrus and Lemon were put in when I killed them. It was a holy liquid that consisted of light purple, black and white.
We eventually got to my small pod which had my name carved out in a pretty looking font. I started to get lots of pains in my body which I assumed was the liquid. Both the king, Crowelle and the doctor were there but someone else was told they were going to come too.
"Valerie is going to come in here too." He says, just as Valerie comes.
"Hi Panic!" They say in a soft and sorrowful voice.
"Hi Valerie."
"I'm sorry that this has to happen. I will- nevermind..."
Why was Valerie the only one that could see me?
"Keep your necklace on, okay? It'll tell the gods that I'm here to help. Anyways, bye Panic. I'll see you when you come back and... good luck, okay? I love you."
"I love you too, Valerie. Tell the others I said I love them and... and I'm sorry." Then they left.
Then the pain started. And boy, that was bad.
It was so bad it became even worse than how the springlocks felt. My arms felt like they were being ripped apart and stabbed a million times. My head was pounding so hard. I started to lose my breath. I knew it was the liquid because I wasn't losing any senses.
"AUGHHH!" I screamed In extreme pain.
"Okay okay Panic... try to calm down! Take a step and lie down in the marble please."
I did so. It was hard to move because each step made it worse, but once I laid in the marble, It started to relax my body muscles and loosen the tight grip of the pain it holds.
"Okay Panic, if you're feeling more relaxed now it means it's working and you're going to be put to sleep in just a few seconds. I just wanted to say goodbye, goodluck and please, be careful. Goodbye Panic Nova Black..."
That was the last sentence I heard before I felt numb again and my mind went blank. But it was only for about three seconds until it moved to my body in an empty space. I could walk, I could talk and I could see. But there was nothing around me. Only darkness.
I waited and waited until someone else was going to come get me. There was no way I was just going to be stuck in a blank space for the rest of my time.
It was silent. I could hear my own heart beating. It would be immediate torture to leave someone like this. I wasn't going to be left like this. It was fine.
But then someone did come. But this was a major surprise, and I was so relieved to see someone. At least someone I knew was going to be with me. I recognised the face and the voice. Then I realised why they were there.
"Hey... Panic! Over here! It's time to go! Come with me! You know who it is."
"It's me!"