kilby girl [hs]

chapter 22

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so sorry this took so long it's exam szn atm so we've been busy! so we're going to take out time with the next update but it should be out before the end of the month
also one week till harry's house!!

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Harry Styles

It's been a week since I last heard from Levi.

I mean I've seen her. I see her every day at school but every time our eyes meet she disappears from my line of vision as if she was never there in the first place. I came into school on Monday to find her sitting at the opposite side of the room in all our classes, sitting as far away as possible from, not just me, but Zayn and Drew as well.

We no longer sit together at lunch. We don't sneak off of campus to make out in my car. We don't share headphones in the hallway. We don't sneak glances at each other from across the room. It feels like we don't even know each other anymore. It's as if we've never even met. To say I'm worried is an understatement.

At first I was hurt by the action of her refusing to acknowledge my existence but the feeling of worry is beginning to seep into my bones when I think about it. I stare at her English in the hopes she'll catch my eye and just simply acknowledge me. It sounds sad and it may sound a little creepy but all I want is a single glance to know she's not drowning in her own head.

One of my favourite things about Levi is her eyes, how they used to wander as she took in everything around her and made it into her own little world. But, her face lacks emotion now. She looks like she's constantly on autopilot and doesn't know when she's going to get off.

The worst part, the part that's eating me alive, is not knowing the reason why. I have no clue what has happened to make her such a shell of a person. How can someone who says they care so much about me completely cut me out of their life with no warning?

Maybe I did something wrong. Drew and Zayn keep repeating that I didn't do anything wrong and it's definitely something else but I'm not sure. There's no other explanation as to why she'd just stop talking to me. She's not good with confrontation, so I obviously fucked up and she doesn't know how to talk about it. Zayn told me I was a fucking idiot for thinking that but i don't know what else to believe.

I'm not the only one freaked out about it, Zayn and Drew are confused as well.
Drew's been trying to call Levi but she gets put to voicemail and her texts stopped sending soon after mine and Zayn's. I didn't think it was possible but Drew took it harder than I did. Levi is her best friend. Drew's never had a girl best friend, she's only even had Zayn and I. She finally got the girl best friend she always wanted, finally had another girl to talk to and gossip with. Levi is all she's ever really wanted. The sudden departure is hard for her.

I walked in on her crying in Zayn's arms at band practice yesterday and immediately I called off band practice and sent Niall home. Drew isn't a crier, I'd never seen her cry before that. I love Drew like a sister and seeing her like that was extremely difficult and I hate that there was a tiny part of me that was angry at Levi for making her feel that way. It was tiny but it was there, although it subdued quickly.

We're all just so confused. It took a hell of a lot for me to be vulnerable with Levi, It doesn't feel fair for her to just leave me like this without an explanation. I'm not saying she's obligated to be with me but I at least deserve an explanation. The last night I spent with her at the lake was special. I felt like I was falling for her, and it felt like she was falling for me. And now she won't even look at me.

The intense ringing of the bell signalling first period jolts me from my trance, Drew smiling at me as Zayn pats my shoulder before they bid me goodbyes before walking the opposite direction to class.