I hate being inside my mind trapped with my demon
Yet the creativity it brings me gives me reasons!
Always second guessing my own worth
Struggling to see who is truly looking back in the mirror.
I know we all need to have some sense of self love
So we can fly free with hope in the skies above!
Yet I can't help but stare into my eyes in the reflection looking back
Wondering whose despise is really looking back at me...
Is it me or my demon that I see in the cracks?
Everything can be so cloudy obscuring my vision
Confusing the reality blurring the demon and myself in collision!
Looking down at my hands creations with glee
Only turning to doubt on every page
Wondering if it was good to any degree.
The world building process can be exhilarating
But will the actual story be as liberating?
Finding all my story beats flowing well towards the goal
Or are my hands just stumbling over another into a plot hole?
My art can be free and flowing in its abstract nature
Yet I can't help but feel like a lesser creator.
Is it truly an enigmatic shine
Or just a mad man's pretentious lines?
My poems are a chaotic mess that need rewired
They are just so tired.
Even standing across from the one my mind just can't drop
My mind constantly thinks about what I could have said to her as she picks
In every fleeting moment we have my mind is thinking about it nonstop.
I'm always thinking which is a dangerous game
You can never be sure when you light the wrong flame!
Sparking the pain of overthinking and doubt
Making you see all the things you should have done
Before the flame has been temporarily doused.
I have no one but myself to blame
I am the creator of the demon who puts me to shame!
I always sit there introspectively quiet
As the demon is always ready to mentally start a riot.
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Inside the Madness of My Mind
PoetrySome people have suggested I put all my poems in one little package. Well I figured I should do just that. So please enjoy the poems I've written from all stages of my life since I was fourteen years old. I am going to put them in order of of well r...