holidays // machine gun kelly & pete davidson

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i get up and open the door. i saw john who he walked back to his car.
"john" i screamed and jumped in his arms "i am so glad to see you".

he hugged me tight back "i'm glad too, gosh i cant wait to be back at the campus in our life, even if studding sucks" he breathed out.
i laughed at his words "me too, i swear my emotions are all over the top".

we laughed, he cached his sunglasses in the car and we went together to the doorstep.

i introduced casey and john. they talked a bit as i grab my suitcase and carried it to johns car.
"welp thank you both for the help with my bag" i laughed. they just smiled at each other.
"so  i want to show john a bit of our hometown, do you want to join us?" i asked casey.
"i would love to but i need to finish my work".
"alright , its okay. you are going to rock that internship" we hugged thigh and said out good bye.

then john and cas waved goodbye and we got in his car.

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i finally arrived my dorm. i walked in, placed my suitcase next to my bed and let my self fall down.
today was super stressful.

as john started the car engine in front of the davidson house, i saw kells at the side next to the house.  he stood at the backdoor to petes basement, smoking. as casey told me pete left earlier i automatically  thought kells left with him, but i was wrong.

a loud gasp left my lips as i saw how kells looked to our car.
"is everything okay?" john asked.
"yeah its just- there is kells. i thought he left earlier" i answered him, still looking to kells.
john looked out of the window "do you want to say good bye? i can wait so long" he smiled soft.
"no, its okay. i think- i dont know its better we drive now" i said low, looking in my lap.
"are you sure?" john asked again.
i nod and he drove down the street.

after that  john and i had a good time in the city, only our way back to the campus was annoying long.

now i am layng alone in my bed.
was i childish that i didnt said good bye to kells?
but he clearly saw me too, he could have make his way to the car to say good bye.

i tried to shake of that thought.  i tried to focus, i had a great time. thinking back i learnt more about my self. I dared to leave my bubble, my comfort zone i was hiding a long time. i let a person near me, even if it ends not that good. the letter of my parents overwhelmed me, but all in all i am glad to read these words. i am sure they would be truly proud of me.

then my thoughts switched back to kells. i was thankful that he hold and listened to me as i had my breakdown. he never forced me to tell him whats going on inside my head, but it felt so confide to tell him whats bothered me. i wish i could have thanked him for being there for me. it means a lot.

after overthinking for another hours i finally drived to sleep.