holidays // machine gun kelly & pete davidson

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"ayoo that the fuck" i heard a shocked voice.
"i told you, but you didnt believed me" another soft voice spoke.

i tried to move a bit, but someone had wrapped his arms around me thigh.
my memories from last night and his smell told me it was kells who held me close.

"when did this happened? did you knew it?" i heard the soft voice again
"hell no, i didnt".
i realized it were petes and cas voices.

oh shit pete and cas.
i tried to turn "col wake up" i whispered and hit him soft with my elbow.
"hmm no" he mumbled in my neck and pulled me even closer to his body.
"colson pete and cas are at the door" i whispered with a blush at my face.

"semms like they are waking up" cas said.

now kells registered my words and the meaning.
he lift his head up looking at the door.

"oh fuck" he grumbled in his deep morning voice, and i couldnt impeded but to feel butterflies.
he nestled his head back in my neck and spoke in a strong tone "we are no movie to watch, so can you leave and shut the fu***** door now".

i honestly was overwhelmed by the whole situation.

"but-" i heard cas speaking up.
pete cut her sentences "take your time bro" pete laughed and the door closed a few seconds later.

i didnt knew what to say. i just laid there completely stiff.
"relax caro. nothing bad happened" Kells whispered and rubbed softly my stomach with his hand.
i felt the butterflies went down to my crotch, but it was not the right moment.

"but-"
"no but. just try to sleep some more and we talk later" he said and i tried to relax.

after idk 10 minutes kells pulled me more into his arms "okay speak. what bothers you? i can feel you are tense and your thoughts are running wild"

"they saw us" i whispered.
"and?" he asked.
"what happens now. we still havent talked what all of this means" i said shyly.

Kells let out a deep breath.
"i dont care if they saw us. we can be honest to them and with all what happened between us or if you are uncomfortable we can say one of us had a nightmare" he said low.

"does that doesn't bothers you that they saw us?" i asked.
"no, why should it?" i answered.

"aah i- i- i dont know. maybe i just stress myself that much because i am not that person who let everyone in my bed. they will know that something is up on my side. i dont want them to ask me a lot. i am not like you who can have different guy in my bed without someone question it" i rumbled.

suddenly kells sat up "what does that mean?" he asked hurt and i knew it was wrong to say that they are used to see kells with many different girls over the time.

"i am sorry, that was mean" i sat up to looking in my lap.
"hmm" he answered with a sad tone "then we say the nightmare story and the whole thing is off the table".

i- that wasnt what i wanted. or was it?
i knew if there is something between us it would be the right moment to open up with it to explore whats between us. but i was scared for rejection.

"if this is what you want" i said low.
i felt kells eyes bore into my small body.

quiet. no one said something.

"okay i think i should go get ready" i whispered.
"wait" kells breathed out heavily. "i meant what i said last night".

i looked at him confused.
"i like you. i like you a lot" he said low and i could see he was scared to say it out loud again.

i sat back in the bed, facing him.
"and what do you want?" i asked.
"i dont know. but i want you near me. i dont want other mens touching and kissing you. i want to see you happy and smiling" he looked into my eyes and held the glare.

a shiver went down my whole body.

"and i dont want them to think i just use you or just was here because of a stupid nightmare. i want them to know i care about you. shit i want everyone know i care about you" he add in a deep voice.

i needed a moment to let his words sink.

we sat the next half an hour in my bed and talked about our feelings. we knew that wasnt enough time to talk about everything what happened between us, but it was a start.

we also tried to be open about what we want.
clear was, we both wanted something between us and we decided that it was time to be open about it, to avert  situations that make the other one jealous.

"you know i am busy and i know your life is in massachusetts right now, but i want to try it. i can come visit you. you are always welcome in LA or where ever i am. what do you think"

our conversation showed me he was serious. he wanted it.
"i think we can try it. yes" i smiled at him.

he send me a big smile back and in the next moment i was pushed back and he hovered above me.
he had the cutest smile on his face as his eyes searched for mine. then they went down to my lips and back to my eyes.
"can i kiss you?" he asked and his voice was deeper now.

i bit my bottom lip "yes,please yes".
and his lips met mine very soft and slow.
the kiss held so many emotions that made my whole body response to it.

kells end the kiss, but nudged his nose tip against mine.
"its better we leave the bed now or we probably never will" he spoke up in a husky voice.