The Unseen World

Sin, Testing and Leena

The seven deadly sins
Most of your testing depends upon what sins you have committed in your life. Whichever one is your biggest weakness, meaning what you are most easily tempted into committing, will become the sin you will have to fight to resist the most. You will be given unlimited chances to pass the tests if you should fail them but if you fail them too often you will be given other tests or tortured by the demons until you start to pass them. Yes, you start testing in hell and the only ways out are by passing the tests or quitting altogether. For me lust was my sin. I'm generally a good person so they needed something to use against me. They can cloud your mind and can make you feel as if you want it from them. Mind control and hypnosis are common tools used amongst demons. They overpower your mind and control you through hypnosis that is if you don't know how to block them. An easy trick is to create a mental wall and use your mind to push back against their attacks. You might feel a sharp stabbing pain in your third eye. (Your minds eye) That's a good thing actually, it helps you to feel your energy signature and how strong you are in comparison to your attackers. They have no power over you unless you let them have it. Free will allows you to decide if you want them or others to control you or not. However this can go against you too if you are given a job to carry out by heaven and choose not to do it. Heaven can punish you for disobedience as well so if you decide to work for heaven keep in mind that you do have a job to do and that job comes before your own desires.

Back to testing, the tortures and rapes lasted for nearly two years. But in that time there were lessons as well where I was learning how to use my abilities and practicing things that I had learned over my many lifetimes. I was still working with Leena at the time however Neera was more independent and didn't care to talk to me much unless she had issues that she needed help with. Leena followed the light workers community quite closely at the time so trying to guide her as I was learning myself to do certain things was often a struggle since she wanted to believe the light workers ways of doing things more. Light workers to us are like people who read the how to books and think they are masters of it all without ever doing the work themselves to see if they are really doing anything or just playing at it. It's "like this" imagine that you have two people in front of you and you want to hire them to remodel your kitchen. One is the light worker, they have read the how to books but have never attempted to do the work or use the tools before. The other is a student of the craft and has worked daily under a master to perfect their skills. Who would you hire? The answer is fairly easy, we would want someone with experience and knowledge more than someone who just "talks the talk".  Anyways I was working day and night to do the work while Leena was out partying and living the "good life". However as I advanced through the ranks and up the ladder (the real Jacobs ladder, the stairway to Heaven) she sat back and ignored the teachings that Merlin and I tried to instruct her in while spending her days and nights out partying with friends.

At one point Merlin instructed me to become her guide. This was after I had reached the first level of mastery and had beaten my shadow self well enough that I was able to control my desires in astral. I had learned how to end the tortures and nightly rapes and could fight back against my attackers now. I was excited to tell Leena the good news that I had received a promotion and was officially able to guide her however it blew up big time and she grew furious with me. She didn't want to hear anything about me having surpassed her in training and since I was now at the first level of mastery she thought she deserved to be a master as well or that she herself was already a master because if I was one then surely she was one too. Leena had a pension for claiming that she was everything that I was because she thought I was just making it all up or that it was just a game we were playing even though she had by now seen the truth herself of the spirit world being real and could understand that we were telling her the truth. It was frustrating to try and teach her, she would agree with everything that we told her about but would then ignore the lessons but still wanted all the rewards that go with advancement in your testing. As you test and become good at it you gain strength and abilities. You move up in ranks and have more responsibilities in the heavens as well and you gain back your memories of your past lives as well. By now I was getting closer to Skippy and Shen as well and I had remembered who they were to me and I had re established my relationship with Skippy even though I had a significant other in my daily life. (It's allowed with agreements set up in the spirit world)

I learned that I was Thalia early on and how I was Merlin's apprentice in my life as Isolde as well but it took a while for the memories of other lives to come through. At first I remembered China and the temples there. Then I remembered that my brother at the time, Shen as he is called now, was with me. That led to me remembering how Shen, Skippy and I were always together in almost every lifetime. Shen fell in love with China and was still in China when Skippy was Tristan during the times of Arthur and Merlin. China was where we had spent a few lifetimes living and it had made a huge impact in who we had become today. I had mastered much of my craft there within those lifetimes. I learned about the elements and how to control them as well as how to control my mind and my self as well as the importance of Chi energies.

Anyways back to Leena.  She did not take to well any news of my promotion and thought I was trying to "claim power over her". She didn't want to understand that this was like me becoming a black belt in karate and was being given a chance to lead the classes and instruct the students in everything I had learned by then. One of the first lessons I wanted to give her was how to read timelines of people's souls since she had a desire to become a healer. I told her to look at her timeline and then to look at mine. The simplest way to look at a timeline is to clear your mind of all thoughts and desires (this allows you to see what is or was without adding anything else to it that could taint the vision and make it a fantasy instead) then to focus on that person's energy signature. Next look for a thread, it could be white, blue, yellow etc. the colors don't really matter as much, but the significant part is how you handle the threads. If you imagine a timeline like a ruler and numbers going one way being past and another way being future then it's easier to maneuver through them. I use right as past and left as future. I put my timeline and hers next to each other in my minds eye and went backwards on her timeline to see where hers began. (To use your minds eye, it is like having a day dream that you let fill your mind and use it to navigate the spirit world without adding anything you desire to see to it.) By now I had gotten fairly good at going through my own timeline for each of my past lives and had remembered almost everything from my time as a grace and a muse. Her timeline however wasn't very long, just a few hundred years. Her first life was in Arthurian times but she refused to hear the truth in that. She had memories of other lives where she was in other locations but she was never "there". Her "memories" were the memories of her ancestors. Ancestral memories exist and are available for us to see but they function as a sort of diary of their lives that is passed down through your dna. If you are reborn into your descendants bloodline you will have an easier time remembering your own lives because your dna memories are already stored within the genetic codes. Her abilities as an empath were very strong but everyone and everything that she saw in her visions she believed "was her". Most of the time she could pick up on my lives and see what I was or felt my energy and thought that she was my sister since she liked what she saw and felt and then she decided that she was "that too". She is a slight relation to me and upon having Merlin and myself read her timeline as well as feeling out her souls bloodlines we were able to tell that she was one of Merlin's kids in one of his lives.

It took a while for Merlin and I to figure out which kid she was and to which mother she belonged to. She belonged to a gypsy queen who was mostly fairy blooded but also belonged to the Frey bloodline. The Frey's are the same bloodline that Freyja is from. However there are two lines of Frey's, one is good and one is evil. Leena was from the evil side. Leena was skilled at hijacking. (A term we use to describe a person who likes to claim others abilities and lives as her own as well as try to steal their powers or abilities.) Her ability to see the lives of her ancestors led her to believe that those lives were "hers". Me on the other hand refused to see what lives didn't belong to me but also I could feel out my timeline well enough to know which life was mine and which life was not based upon if it had my energy signature or not. I tried to explain how this all worked to her but her desire to be as old and powerful as I was overcame her so much that she "blew her lid". The combination of me being given guide abilities upon my promotion and me being older then her and trying to show her that she was not as old as she thought she was is what caused her to go into a tantrum. She went to Merlin complaining that I was too harsh in my teachings because I wasn't letting her get away with her delusions of grandeur. She asked for the council to judge me for my harshness. The council is made up of the ruling class in heaven. It's mostly the kings, queens and archangels that gather together for important issues and discussions over larger matters. The council decided that it wasn't a good idea for me to continue to teach her since she was not listening to the teachings anyways and that anything I tried to tell her she would just deny anyways or try to place the blame onto me for being in a higher position then she was. In other words we all agreed that Leena was not ready for instruction yet and that her childish behaviors were not conducive for her advancement in testing at that time so I was reassigned to my original duties once again.