Double Date

Chapter 5

Terrence

I was talking to Keegan and the boy was sighing. I rolled my eyes already knowing what he wanted to say.

"Okay, go ahead."

"Do you think he'd come with me to my parents this weekend?" I blinked at him and leaned back in my chair. We were in the living room of our apartment, he was staring at his phone almost contemplating calling Trevor.

"If you ask him, you better understand what that looks like." I pursed my lips and he frowned looking at me.

"What'd'you mean?"

"You know what I mean, Keegan." I grabbed the remote ready to watch the game. "Meeting parents is a serious move. People tend to freak out because it usually means a lifetime relationship."

"Well, that's what I want."

I looked at him and he blinked at me as though it were simple. "So soon? You guys have been together for one two weeks."

"So? When you know, you know." He shrugged and then he dialled Trevor and stood. I wanted to stop him, everything in my body told me to jump up and grab the phone and stop him and yet I couldn't.

When you know, you know. His words were so simple, to the point and honest. There was a time when I had known, when I had believed I did only to be disappointed. As I looked at the excitement on Keegan's face I pursed my lips realising that Trevor was just as excited judging by Keegan's excited skipping. It was nice for him, he knew and Trevor knew too. I hadn't been so lucky and I was almost about to ruin it for Keegan.

Realising that Keegan was done with his phone call and I hadn't moved an inch, I forced a smile for his apparent joy. Why hadn't I been so lucky? What had been so hard about a lifetime with me? I know relationships aren't the same, it doesn't mean a person never wonders why it doesn't go the same way for everyone else especially considering the circumstances.

I stood and stretched. I had spent three years invested into a relationship with someone and they had let me go, they had felt pressured by me when I wanted to discuss the future, when I wanted us to get closer. Keegan had spent onto two weeks with a guy and already they were on a level of understanding I'd only ever dreamed of for myself.

"I'm going for a run." I told him before he got into his excited gushing.

I grabbed my earphones and iPod before I left the place. I frowned out my thoughts and sighed as the cool night air nipped at my skin. I closed my eyes and took a few laps around my block.

I smiled as I thought to Dakota, my newest friend. After losing sleep because of our movie night, I had seen him again two days later for lunch, he had come to me and we are close to my company because he had the whole day free and was planning to just go back to his place to study after lunch with me. It amazed me how easy it was to talk to him. To be around him was like breathing, it wasn't awkward or forced and I really enjoyed that about him.

He made me feel welcomed, wanted and important in the weirdest way. I shook my head as I stopped my running, realising that as sad as I was about my failed relationship, I wasn't as heartbroken, and it was hard for me to even picture my ex, it was like a block was formed where I couldn't really remember his face.

I cleared my throat and ran back home. Keegan was gone and I already knew where he'd gone before I saw the note on the fridge about where he was and that he'd see me at work.