You Are My Home. ( L.S. )

Anne

Love isn't easy.
If love is easy then what you have isn't love because no matter what happens during your happiness there is always darkness.

People fight for love, people live for love, and people die for love.

Love isn't easy, love is communication, trust, vulnerability.

"Harry?"

I looked over to see Louis looking up at me.

"Are you okay?"

love.

Louis is my love.

"Yeah i'm alright" i smiled at the little hedge hog who just woke up

"okay.. we'll i'm going to go get some water" he smiled softly

he got up leaving the room.

i looked around the room finding nothing to look at except the three boys asleep on the couch and floor.

i sigh in relief.

relief that everything is okay right now.

Ring

Ring

Ring

Ring-

I got up annoyed to look at the phone in the table that i recognized as Louis'

"Anne ❤️ is calling"

My heart stopped.

I stared at the phone intensely. i didn't know they still talked.

I love walked out of the room walking to the front door before sitting on the porch and i hesitated but soon answered.

"Louis?"

tears came to my eyes at the sound of her voice.

"Louis hun, you there?"

i never answered i just stayed silent as tears flowed down my face.

"Louis can you hear me? I can't hear you.."

"hi" i whispered

she stayed silent for a minute

"Louis? is that you?" she didn't know my voice. she didn't recognize her own sons voice. "who is this"

i let out a small sob

"Are you okay?" my mothers concerned voice sounded

"yeah, I-I will be fine." I said in my normal voice louder with a crack at the end of my sentence

there was a long pause before i heard her whisper.

"Who is this.."

"don't recognize my voice?" i asked sadly knowing i was the one to blame for that.

"..Harry?"

i stayed silent while giving her the answer.

"harry? is that you?" now it was her who sounded like she crying.

"i'll tell Louis you have called. goodbye ma, i love you." i whisper at the end

"no har-"

i hung up

I cried into my hands as i heard the door open and then small feet running to me.

"Baby? what's wrong?"

he came over and sat next to me on the porch as he hugged me and pulled me to his chest.

"what happened."

i look up at him with my red eyes and face.

"you've gotten a call."

his eyes widen before confusion comes to his face.

"who was it?"

"my mother." i said looking down

there was a period of silence

"did you answer?" he asked and my silence gave him the answer

the phone started ringing again but i ignored it.

he took his phone gently from my hands and i let him.

my heart froze when i saw him answer.

"Harry?!" My mum shouted from the other side

"it's me Anne." Louis said

"Where is he? I heard him, I talked to him" i heard her crying

"he's right next to me.." he looked over at me for a second as if he was thinking before saying the words that made me almost shit myself. "would you like to come over?"

"yes"

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four boys stood in front of me as blocking all exits as i tried to get away.

it's been like this for the past fifteen minutes.

I run for an exit and finally make it, running out of the living room and into the hallways hearing them yelling after me.

i grabbed my keys and opened the door and running out shutting it behind me and turning back around before stopping in my tracks.

she stood in front of me with tears down her face.

i dropped my keys and i heard the door open before everything went silent.

She ran to me, hugging me tightly.

At first i stayed still, unsure of what to do or if this was a dream.

I let out a sob as i wrapped my arms around her.

we stood that way for about five minutes before pulling back.

"Harry." she said in a heartbroken tone "how could you do this. it's been years since i've seen my own son. I don't even recognize you!" she yelled at me with a voice crack

she was mad

understandable.

"mum-"

"no! do you know how worried i was about you every night and day?! do you know how much i have cried?! you left at the time where i knew you needed help. i was wondering every day 'is he dead' or 'has he gotten himself hurt'. you left when your drinking and eating was getting bad. you left!" she cried and yelled

"how could you do that to me" she asked

"do you want me to be honest?"

i heard silence between everyone

"yes harry. that's what i want."

"i didn't care." i said with a tear flowing down my face

they only stared at me

"I didn't want to live at the moment. every day was misery. throwing up, drinking, starve and sometimes eat. that's all it was." i said with a rough voice "So i didn't want any contact. i didn't think you cared either."

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I hope you are all happy and healthy my loves.

don't forget to eat and drink enough water, remember you're always more than enough.

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