You Are My Home. ( L.S. )

As It Was

I woke up the next morning to find myself stuck in a laundry basket.

"what the bloody hell" I whisper to myself

I try getting up but my but is halfway down and my body is quite literally folded.

how did I fall asleep like this?

trying to find a way to get out, I ended up falling and having to almost crawl out of it.

my whole day I spent in my back yard. it has a garden, a pool, cookout area and even a trail in the woods to go walking or biking and if you take the right turns it takes you to a huge cliff, on top is all grass and flowers but if you fell it's all woods and its a pretty damn far fall so..

Thats where I spent my whole day though, working on my new song called As It Was.

(yes I know this song is everywhere right now but I love it and it fits pretty well here)

I watched the sunset and I think this is the longest I have gone without alcohol in years. When it was dark I headed back home taking a shower before sitting in front of me and Louis' room.

I hadn't gone in it yet, It was the only room I couldn't. there was still pictures of me and Louis on some places of the house, even some of his things were here. I fortunately haven't looked enough to find anything but I know they're here. the house haunts me but this room..

this room will have his clothes in the draws, his sunglasses on my black vanity, his chapstick in my bathroom next to the sink, this room will have a picture of him on my back and kissing my lips as I looked back at him on my nightstand, this room will have his shirt I cried into on the bed the day he broke up with me.

the day he broke up with me I didn't even wait 24 hours before leaving. I didn't even take anything. I just disappeared and not even the fans have seen or heard anything of me since.

I hid well every time I went out and I went to the bars every night.

I focused back on the door in front of as I touched the doorknob.

I took my hand back and shook my head. "not today" 

I went down the hall and grabbed a blanket in the guest room before going downstairs and laying down on the couch. turning on my tv to see if I was still logged into some of the things like Netflix.

I went on Netflix not expecting it to still be there cause I haven't paid for it once.

it was there, meaning Louis has been paying for it.

my account was still on there. 

it was just mine and Louis' and for some reason that made my heart race. he didn't even change the password to kick me out..

I clicked on his account to see what he had been watching.

I snorted when I saw Bojack Horseman and Victorious 

I just stared at the screen, im not sure why but this was super weird to me and it made me want to cry. I did get teary but I didn't let a tear fall.

I went back on to mine and see I have no shows or movies that ive been watching so I started to look for a show finding the show "you"

I woke up to my phone ringing

"what" I groaned not even opening my eyes

"Be at the studio in 30 minutes."

I hung up.

the past few days I've gotten more calls then I've gotten in the past two years. after I cut off mum and Gemma I had literally nobody. I was fine with that though.