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"Think I like you best when you're just with me and no one else"
╔═*.·:·.✧ ✦ ✧.·:·.*═╗ There's this guy that I like. A lot. He's probably one of the reasons I'm still here. He was the one who was interested first. I thought about it for a few months and...ended up liking him back. To be honest, I've had a lot of small crushes when I was younger, but...I think none of what I felt back then compared to what I'm feeling now.
Sure, he's not the best option there is, but something about him makes me attracted to him. I can't seem to put my finger on it. Maybe it's because of our similar interests? Or maybe because of how kind and gentle he is? It's at the tip of my tongue but... I don't know.
He's in my mind 24/7 and I can't help myself but think of him. I often fanatize about us in the future. I think about how life would be like in the future with him. Would we end up marrying each other? I hope so. He's a charming person to me. I want to be with him. I want to hear his voice...
I feel like I'm such a creepy person. I wouldn't be surprised if some people I've told these things to find me creepy or dislike me.
We don't talk to each other that much nowadays. We have another one of our friends deliver messages for us. When I want to ask him something I always go to that specific friend. We talked to each other everyday a few months ago, I don't know what happened.
He used to say things that would make my heart skip a beat. Things such as, "You're really pretty" "I'm already happy that I'm matching profiles with you" and other stuffs like that. Words can't express how I appreciate those words. Even if their just very simple compliments(?), coming from him... It makes me really happy. I always smile or get excited whenever he talks to me, even if it's just a simple 'hi' or just a question. I've made 2 playlists on spotify dedicated to him...
But, despite him and my best friends saying that he truly likes me. I feel like he's just playing with my feelings. I don't know why I feel like that. My friends must be tired of my constant whining. He must be talking shit about me to his other friends. He must not like me and is just pretending. He must be feeling bad, that's why he's saying he likes me... I get so frustrated.
Another thing is that, despite us not being in a relationship. I get overly jealous and I'm too protective. I'm sure that's a bad thing,right? He's probably feeling annoyed whenever my jealous/overprotective side shows. He's close to one of my best friends and I'm really jealous. I want to talk to him everyday aswell... I want him to be comfortable with me too.
To me, he's the only person I want to be with. I want to run away, somewhere, with him.
05.24.2022
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Hello if you want to add me on discord, my user is Lian#8222. That's all. Hope you have a great day/night. Take care of yourself. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to:)
