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Your eyes, they shine in the light. I wish you could see them to.

^^ me protecting Louis.

Forever yours <3

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Time moves at a pace in which we have to sprint to reach. Always chasing that next moment of pleasure instead of seeing what's really right in front of your face. A smile, a real smile that changed over the years I've known you. The tears I've let go because of you, the ones I haven't let go of quite yet. I crave your touch but would repel if you touched me. I long to stare into your eyes but would blink as they met mine. I need to feel your arms around me but would keep my own by my side.

I taste the bittersweet love you left me with. A child who fell in love and a grown up who wishes it never faded away. You knew what it was to be in love together, feeling just out of reach of freedom, hiding our kisses for the better good. Making love in the back seat of your car so as to not wake up the neighbours. I see your face everywhere I go, every sign is leading me to you but I turn the other way. You left me, I won't be the one to go back to you, in desperate need of love and attention. I miss you dearly, my love but I shall never let that hate go.

Your smile, there it is. I see it under the bright lights that shine down on your head, those red lights illuminate the tears that fill the green pits of despair. I feel no sympathy like I know I should. I don't feel that way because I know you don't feel it either, you left and smiled the next day. I was left alone and haven't smiled since. I loved you so dearly, the moon was the only thing on earth that could understand my pain, I would cry into the night like a baby wishing for milk.

So I ran, I ran and ran and ran and you met me every step of the way with a smile that wasn't meant for me. A smile I would see in photos that littered my screen. A pretty smile of the prettiest person I ever came to know. My true love, I would rather die alone.

Then here we are, so close yet so far, our hands brushing and breath mixing in the air. The tears that finally happened. They were waiting for you to be able to feel, they waited for you just as I did. But did you wait for me too? Or was I just a past life to you? I yell before I know, I scream and feel the oxygen leave my brain. My mind, floating, in the mess of the world, floating in the haze between the horizon and the sea. The truest of views you could ever believe. Oh my dear, how much I miss the old me.

Touch me again, just like before. Tell me you love me by kissing my neck. Show me you care by holding my hand in yours. Marry me by a lake, just the two of us and a swan. I dreamt of the time when you broke my heart again. I refuse to forget that pain because the love we hold together now outweighs the unimaginable pain. I wish us the best in the future we will have for a lifetime. For all the upcoming smiles and laughs. All the songs we will dance too, all the happiness that is visible on our faces. We shall live in the stars once we die, not even in death shall we ever part again. I'll never let go of your hand. I'll grip it with love for so long it's imprinted with my name. I'll call your name, I'll speak it in every language in the world. I'll show you how much I love you in the morning, I promise. For now, let us rest our tired eyes, no dreams to come to either of us. Our life is more important than any form of fiction. Good night my love, I'll wake up and see you in the morning, with a kiss on the cheek. The light goes out and our minds fade into sleep.