Take My Heart, will you? (PHAXLAM) (BOYXBOY) (COMPLETED)

Pha

I cannot deny that Lam was right but my heart hurt when he said that. And to be honest, when I kissed him for the dare, it felt so right.

When I kissed him again, it felt so right again. What was happening to me?

But his words made me feel like I was thrown from a cliff. I went back to the cottage, where Thun was busy watching a movie. I just went straight to the toilet. I came out a few minutes later, my eyes red. I couldn't help it. I sat down on the bed and Thun came over. He just sat down on the floor, his hands softly grasping mine.

"If you like him, you need to accept it and make it clear. If you don't, then you are just confusing yourself and him. It's not fair to both of you."

I looked at Thun. I was about to reply when I heard Lam reply coldly, "He doesn't like guys. He only likes girls. Don't do this to him Thun. Can you please stay away from this?"

I caught Thun whose face turned ashy. He apologised and went off to the day bed. He then turned in for the night. I looked at Lam who then turned and left. This whole day just turned out to be a mistake thanks to me acting on my feelings.

I made Lam upset, I caused Thun to get scolded and I realised that my heart was aching very very badly.

The next day, we all set off from the beach. We did the same arrangement. We all dropped off at the dorms, said bye and we all went our separate ways. Thun thanked me for allowing him to come along. I apologised to him for the way Lam had acted and he waved it off. He said Lam was a big brother to him and he had every right to do that.

To think I was jealous over this guy. He was in fact such a sweetheart. I smiled at him and he went off. That left only me and Lam.

Lam said bye and was about to go off. I held onto his hand.

"Can we talk Lam? Please?"

Lam looked at me for a long while before agreeing. We went up to my dorm.

"I am sorry. For kissing you without your permission or asking if you are ok with it. For kissing you without making it clear. For kissing you when I say things otherwise. But i wnt apologise for kissing you for it felt very right. I can't quite place my feeling on what it is but... please.. Don be angry at me Lam. I can handle anything but you being angry at me. You not talking to me, being angry at me , ignoring me. I cannot deal with it."

I then hugged Lam firmly upon that monologue. I felt Lam sigh. But he held me back. This too felt so right.

What the fuck was this?