Take My Heart, will you? (PHAXLAM) (BOYXBOY) (COMPLETED)

Lam

Pha wanted me to stay over again but I declined. I just needed the time away from him. He placing his hand over mine made my heart go boom boom again and yet, when I also look at him, I recall the words he said at the bar.

I am only human and the words did sting when I hear it. He is clearly very straight. I thought I was too until I met Pha and I realized maybe, I am only as straight as spaghetti. (Author's POV: Hur, hurr) He is a nice guy and maintaining a little distance would be good for my heart and sanity, whilst also respecting him. Maintaining a cool persona will not be difficult for me as it is part of my personality. (Author's POV: But Lam, this hasn't quite been the case so far with Pha in the equation....)

The next few days was such a blur of events for me. It was cray busy and I was being slammed with assignments back-to-back. I was finishing up some lab work on Friday evening around 8pm when I heard knocks at the door. I went over to open it only to find Pha at the door. "Hey Pha, what are you doing here? Is everything ok?". I beckoned him in and he closed the door after himself as I went to get him a drink.

"I haven't seen you in quite some time. Been very busy, I guess?" Pha asked. I nodded my head as I passed him an iced coffee drink. I had realized it was his favourite drink and so I started keeping some in my fridge ever since then. Just then, Pha passed me the bag he was holding onto. I took it only to realize he had my favourite snacks and drinks inside. I raised my eyebrows in surprise and looked at him. "Heh, I may or may not have asked Park for the information."

I laughed, knowing that he must not have wrestled that information out of Park so easily. To think he went to that extra effort warmed my heart inevitably and I just smiled. Smiling seems to come so easily around this fellow. Ugh, not good Lam, not good. I scolded myself internally. I must have looked weird as Pha just cocked his head in confusion. I just laughed again and got him to sit down. I went to pack away my things when Pha stopped me.

"Don't. Finish up your work. I brought mine too, so maybe I can stay here to finish it up?" he asked meekly. I nodded in agreement and we sat down to complete our work. It was close to 10.30pm by the time I finished my work. I looked over to see Pha who was still immersed in his work. I just smiled and went to get a refill of his drink. I then sat down to watch him do his work whilst I played my game simultaneously.

By the time Pha wrapped up his work, it was midnight. I was long gone and had fallen asleep, my head on the table. I was wiped out from my week. Suddenly I woke up around 4am with a start. I was super disoriented for a while until I realized that I was still sitting at the table, with a jacket on me and Pha just across me, his hand on mine, soundly sleeping away. Once I realized I wasn't in any immediate danger (sometimes my brain just works weird), I just laid back down and looked at him. His hair was falling down and just covering his eyes abit. I reached out and brushed it away slightly. He moved abit and I held my breath for a bit until I felt the momentum again. I just realized that Pha had spent his night here and actually there was no specific purpose for why he came over. Did he just come over to spend his Friday with me?

That thought made me smile abit more like a goofy idiot, a side that nobody has to see but it just confused me a wee bit with how he behaved. I would think that he would want to keep a distance too till the whole debacle over the videos died down but for some reason, Pha doesn't seem to be doing that. I thought girls were confusing, but boys don't seem to be any better, do they?