I'm Here

Chapter 11

Chapter 11 This will stop
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I woke up in the hospital I had wires all hooked up to my arms. How the hell will I afford this? I laid there only hearing my own heartbeat.

I thought of my mom. Look at your son now. Look at what you've created. I knew I'd be my mom and become an addict just not This fast.

I started to remember my brother Joe. He was the best brother anyone would ask for. But yes, I did have a brother. I never remember to talks about him because he's gone. He looked a lot like me. Brown hair, blue eyes, tall. After a while he got in a fight with these thugs and he dyed his hair blond and wore contacts. He would then ask me to call him Jake.

He changed his whole appearance to not get beat up. He would even act differently. The only memory I can remember perfectly is when I was 7 and he was 10 we were playing in the trees. He was about to climb but some thugs came over and asked for some change. Me being who I am, jumped down to protect Joe . But Joe pushed me away. He wouldn't let me help.

I don't have a phone or anything to save him.

One thug pulled out a gun to his head.......Jimmy was shot.

I woke out of my daze to me hearing running. I saw Rachel run in with Lilly.

"Logan!" Lilly shouted she went to the side of the machine and hopped onto the bed.

She kissed my cheek and jumped off. She than ran back outside.

Rachel watched me. Watching my breathing on the screen.

"That's the most beautiful sound," she smiled.

"What is?" I asked looking around.

"Your breathing then I know you're alive and well," she smiled while blushing.

"Aw I love you."I said then covering my mouth.

"Did you just say I love you?" She asked.

"Yeah....if your not comfortable to say that we don't have to." I replied feeling embarrassed.

"No," she walked closer and sat down on the side the of bed, "I love it just like I love you." She kissed my cheek.

He doctor came in and told us it was indeed Valium and he asked how I got it. I lied and told him I found it. He told me I was good to go.

I still felt Valium in my pocket. I wanted it so bad, just one little pill. I think I'm an addict.

Rachel Lilly and I got a bus ride back near her house Lilly ran into Rachel's house. We stayed outside.

"Where are your parents?" I asked.

"Vacation," she replied.

I looked down at my shoes, "Can I show you my past and my life?" I asked.

"Sure," she said willingly.

I grabbed her hand and we ran to the ghetto area. We made it to West Street which is the street filled with gangs but it's the only way to my place.

Rachel looked scared. She grabbed my hand tighter. If you look around graffiti everywhere, abandoned businesses, and gangs.

We kept walking until this back guy walked up to us. He had his shirt off tattoos everywhere and had smelled like smoke.

He whistled and then said "damn girl." To Rachel. I got so mad so I got my fists ready but she said she got it.

She let go of my hand and looked at the guy. "Excuse me if you ever try to catcall someone again you better think twice."

"How about I say it again and cut you off," he smirked.

"If you say it again something else is getting cut off." She looked at him with serious eyes.

She walked back to me.

"How the hell-." I started.

"Nothing." she smirked.

She grabbed my hand and we kept moving.

"So this is where I grow up," I said while walking.

"I'm so sorry I wish I could stop it," she has a tear.

"Don't cry it's okay," I saw my complex, "that's where I live." I pointed to it.

I could tell Rachel felt weird.

"So you're poor?" She asked looking deeply into my eyes.

"Yeah.....I am." I replied looking down

"It's okay I just told you I love you and that's all that matters," she kissed my cheek.

I blushed and smiled at her.

"Can you promise me something?" She asked.

"Anything." I replied.

"Stop using Valium, please I don't want you hurt," she gave me serious look.

"Okay I promise."