Strawberries and Cigarettes ‧₊˚✧

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RED SWEATER

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the sun rose but denis didn't, his thoughts had made him stay up all night and yes they were all of elijah.

the pain lurking his elijah's eyes, his voice trembling when he talked, the chilling statement he left with from the boys locker room with. all these thoughts filled denises mind.

then he heard his mom barge into his room, "it's 1 in the afternoon! wake up! dont ya wanna have lunch?" she yelled.

"no." denis replied in a monotone voice. he didnt want to have lunch, get out of his bed or do anything. he didnt feel up to it.

his mom sighed, "ok but make sure to have dinner and wake up early tomorrow because we are going at grandpa joe's for the holidays!!" she spoke.

"oh god." denis rolled his eyes and waited for his mom to leave after she lectured him on respecting elders and never rolling your eyes at them.

after that, denis spent the rest of the hours either on his gameboy or laying in bed while thinking of elijah.

dinner time came around and he was forced to go downstairs and eat. he had his first glass of water of the day as his parents started conversing about work and other things denis didnt care about.

the piece of chicken he had chewed in the mean time refused to go down his throat, he felt pressure building up in his throat.

he choked on his food and sobbed violently. the love fever and realisation of what he had done to elijah washed over him.

all the times, he treated him like shit,
bullied him a ton but the biggest mistake he made was to think elijah was the weak one. elijah was sucidal yet he kept going everyday despite the bullying at school. elijah stood up for denis when everyone was shamelessly bullying him for crying.

on the other hand, denis ruined many things by being a coward. he ruined what he and elijah could've been. he might've been elijah's last straw to kill himself because he was too much of a coward to tell him that he loved him.

his parents only got angrier and screamed at him more for having an emotional breakdown at dinner.

he blocked out everything and stood up from the dinner table, he stormed out the front door of his house with a heavy heart.

he had a destination in mind and a plan to take care of. he hoped the fence of his new neighbour, landing himself directly into their little garden.

it was difficult to navigate in the dark but he found what he was looking for. there was a little plant with freshly bloomed roses on it. he quickly grabbed one and booked it out of there.

he ran and ran while feeling his heartbeat increase with each step. it was an intense path to follow but he made it. the place where he needed to be and wanted to be.

elijah's house.

micheal and matthew had told him the address to his house, they would always talk about scaring him at halloween when he was home alone.

denis was completely out of breath when he reached there due to the unnecessary running he did out of panic. 

he looked right into elijah's room while catching his breath. he was relived when he saw the light was on, elijah is fine, he thought. 

that wasn't enough confirmation though. denis took a deep breath and began to climb up the pipes leading to elijah's room. he was quick and careless, in the process as he was driven by the fear of losing elijah forever. it was really a surprise that he didn't fall.