Rejected by the Alpha

I Need An Explination

*Abby's POV*

I was left alone with Nick while Jace went to get me food. Nick stayed over by the door the whole time. He never got closer, its like he is waiting me out. He told me I was his mate 2 days ago, but everytime I tried to ask him about something, or tell him something, he would not look at me or chagne the subject. I was concerned for him. He seemed really nice, but he was troubled by something. My memories havent come back yet, the doctor says that it could be weeks or months.

"Nick, we need to talk." I tried to make him look at me. He kept staring at the ground, I needed something from him. "What is wrong with you? You drop the mate-bomb and then you push it awa?!" I screamed at him. "I can't sit here forever trying to figure these things out. I need help. I need your help."

"Please stop crying." Nick got up and walked toward me. I hadn't even realized I was crying. I needed something from him. I am tired of sitting in the dark, knowing that I have a past that I can't remember and a person who could tell me everything I needed to know.

"I wish no one brought me back." I whispered. "What ever happened must have been so bad, that my mind shut it out completely. I wish I was still dead. It's a whole lot better than thinking you did something, but you can't even remember what it was. I have to know, what was so bad that my mind shut down?"

"Don't speak like that! I am glad they brought you back. When they said that your heart stopped and that you dont remember me, I was devistated. I told myself that the gods were giving me my punishment for all those horrible things to you. All those beatings back in school. Never letting you enjoy the sun during the summer. Because... because I was scared. I didn't want anything to happen to you, so I did it. Because I knew that if I put you through it, if anyone else did it, it wouldn't be so bad.

"I wanted everything to work out in the end, and when I saw you smile at me, even after all those beatings, I knew that I failed. I failed at protecting you from jerks like me, from people who want nothing more than to see you suffer. You smiled at me when you found out we were mates, even after I hurt you, you still cared enough to love someone, to forgive someone, after all the pain you went through. All the pain that I put you through. The only person that you trusted enough to tell that you were afraid of the dark.

"I stole that trust from you, and when the time came, you still trusted me, you still believed that that little boy was still there. That now that you found your mate, everything would be better. I caused you the most pain because you trusted me and I vialated your trust. I gave out all of your secrets and you still smiled at me. You still... you still believed in me. Even after I rejected you, you still came back. I won your heart back after losing it too many times.

"I wanted so badly to have you move on and forget about me, to leave and never come back. I wanted you to have some dignity, but I took it when I laughed in your face about you being my mate. Inside I was dying because I let you down, and I let my final chance slip through my fingers. I let you get hurt after I swore nothing will happen to you, that I would never let anything harm you in anyway. And here we are, you died... twice. And all I am doing is pushing you away again.

"I never wanted this to happen, all I wanted was for you to be happy. After I hurt you that first time, something in me snaped and died. After that, the only thing I could think about was more ways to hurt you because I was scared of the truth. I knew what happened that night, I didn't want to believe it. I told myself over and over that that isn't what happened, I told myself that so often, I believed it. When you didn't tell me what happened, I felt like you never trusted me, that you never would have trusted me.

I played it over and over in my head, you screaming and crying, but never telling anyone. You didn't even tell your parents before the were killed. You just carried on and shut the world out. If I had trusted my instinct, none of this would have happened. If I had agreed to stay with you that night..." He stopped and stared at the ground with tears in his eyes.

"Get out." I said.

"Wha.."

"Get out!" I screamed. He jumped and left the room. I looked down at myself and cried. I hugged my knees to my chest and screamed into my knees, rocking back and forth.

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I don't remember falling asleep, but I woke up to find Jace holding me. I leaned into him as yesterday's events filled my head. I looked over to find Nick gone, I felt bad about kicking him out.

"Have you ever done or said something that you regret?" I asked Jace.

"Yes." He answered.

"What do I do?"

"Apologize. They may not forgive you at first, but they will come around."

"How do you know?" I looked up at him. His eyes went rigid and he looked away from me. More secrets?!

"Because I am staring at the proof right now." He leaned in and kissed my forehead. Just then the doors flew open and another guy came storming in.

"Who are you?"

"Good God, this can't be true. It's me Lance. Your Alpha." Lance said.

"I thought Nick was my Alpha?" I am so confused.

"No, he is you old Alpha and current mate. I am your current Alpha."

"How is that possible?"

"You ran away after he rejected you. I accepted you into my Pack. You are my head warrior, and my Beta."

"I need an explination."