A Fuckboy gone wrong - A REAL DATING STORY

Chapter 12 - Wrapping up - Summer 2022

SUMMER 2022

Hello, Hello...

What a ride, huh?  Bumpy, hot, unpredictable. And yet after you get to know Moritz's formula...SOOO PREDICTABLE. 

THE PATTERN ALMOST BEGAN AGAIN. 

Because of course despite saying goodbye - It took us less then a day to admit we are absolutely continuing this - And once again he struggled with Nora. 

And he just decided for himself that he was gonna do whatever he wanted to do. 

So - We booked a hotel.... I also met his father, we went to a concert, I came by his office, we fucked on his bosses desk, we fucked everywhere actually, we went to a bunker, we went to a rehearsal room. It was fun- ha. We spent the night being freezing cold and cuddling like our life depended on it.

But time was limited,- I had to go back to LA. This was great. This was the best time ever but he still was with Nora, and he still had NO intention to actually end it. 

We talked A LOT. We kissed even more, we were holding each other for more moments that I can remember. And I think I had 100 orgasms. 

But it was time for me to leave - I told him that I give him until December 2022 to figure it out. By then he either knows what he wants or we would have to stop talking, once and for all. 

So before I felt like I was losing control again I flew back to LA. 

Which brings us to this night - Today. Hello everyone. 

It's been months now since I saw him. I forgot how he tastes, forgot how he feels. 

I've been missing him. Despite being way more in control of my emotions and knowing the facts, the drug-cocktail that is Dopamine, Adrenaline but mostly Serotonin and Oxytocin definitely is still putting me through a bit of a whirlwind. Because as you all know, It's fucking fun with him - I loved having our energies moving after they've been stuck for so long. I honestly believe this last month was very healthy for us both, which proves my point that all along we just needed more exposure and the freedom to do what we feel is right to do.

So we have been sending each other lots and lots of videos - we have facetimed, I masturbated at the beach on facetime and got caught - lol. Oh yeah. Moritz ignites fire inside of me. 

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All my life I have been living with the following mantra: 

*MAYBE IT WON'T WORK OUT. 

BUT MAYBE SEEING IF IT DOES WILL BE THE BEST ADVENTURE EVER*

I have structured my entire life around doing things I wana do. Never looking back. Always learning and growing and always taking a dare. Always taking the risk. I am paying with pain, heart-ache and money for some of my decisions, but I always gain: LIFE- I gain LIFE EXPERIENCE, LIFE LESSONS, just pure, blissful LIFE. I soak it up. I am craving it. All of it . The Highs, the lows, the pain, the love.

And in the same spirit this is how I approached Moritz. Moritz and me knew we would hit a dead end if he was not changing. And we did hit it. I fell in love with him because he also thrived off living life to its fullest - but suddenly there was a road block and it pisses me off, still. This is not how I function. I do things, I don't stand by. 

For me, it's still frustrating because I know me and him would be a big fucking epic adventure regardless of its outcome. 

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