I'm yours if you're mine | Mattheo Riddle x Reader

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I woke up in Mattheo's dorm with what felt like a pair of eyes staring at me, as I eventually opened my eyes I realised it was Mattheo "What are you doing?" I chuckled as I felt my cheeks get warm en red.

"I was thinking about what you said last night.." Mattheo then spoke, I on the other hand was confused "What? Shit what did I say?" I said now worrying a little

"Is it true? That you were in love, when we were dating?" He asked

I sighed and sat up on the bed, rubbing my eyes and yawning, I sighed heavily "Yeah" I was now looking at him, my facial expression saddened though I wasn't really that sad.

Mattheo looked shocked and almost embarrassed, he was now sitting up next to me and looking into my eyes "I'm sorry" he said

"It's okay, I get it." I replied giving him a fake smile and then looking down at my thighs

"Actually you don't.." Mattheo said

"I didn't want to hurt you and I know sleeping with your sister was a shitty move but—" he paused for a second, as if he wanted to tell me something but he was keeping it from me "But I did it because it was the only way I could keep you away from me" he continued

"Why would you want me to stay away from you?"

"Because Bella, my father.."

"What does your father have to do with this?" I replied a little anger entering my body

"My father fell in love once, with my mother, Anastasia Riddle." He began as I was listening intensely "My father was always a great student with a lot of talents, though he didn't associate himself with the best kind of people nor did my mother. Even though my father was thought to be heartless he always had that little soft spot for mother, he always loved her no matter what, he showed her affection and cared for her.. and she loved the feeling of being loved."

He sighed "They loved each other, deeply but my mother had fallen sick when she was pregnant with me, my father always told me that I was the reason" he said as his lips were trembling, was he getting emotional? He decided to hold his hand as a sign that I was listening "That I was the reason for her illness, a year later after I was born my mother died in her sleep with my father by her side at our home" a tear had fallen on his cheek at this moment "my mother loved me deeply, and told my father that it never was my fault but he didn't care, because he never does. Somehow it always has to be someone's fault, and it was mine.."

"Because of this, my father doesn't want me to even experience love.. he always told me, if I would he would torture my lover.. and Bella I can't see you being tortured.. it hurts my soul even thinking of you being tortured" he said whipping his tear quickly

"Y-you love me?" Is the only thing I could let out

He chuckled "I do"

"My brother told me, if my mother hadn't died then this whole war thing wouldn't even exist, because with her he was okay." He continued, he stared into deeply into my eyes "I can't see you suffering" he whispered

I felt tears form into my eyes "Oh my god Mattheo" I said and immediately pulled him into a hug "I never wanted to hurt you" he said now as his vulnerability was showing, he was tense and he slowly began crying "I don't want to be the reason for another death"

"How can you say that Mattheo? It's not your fault.. and I promise you, even if I die, it won't be your fault." I said rubbing his head and kissing his cheek

"I'm sorry" he said as he began historically crying "shh it's okay" I said as he began crying into my chest, "Mattheo" I said feeling so bad for him