I'm yours if you're mine | Mattheo Riddle x Reader

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"I love you Isabella Parkinson"

When I had read that last line I felt tears hit the paper, my hands were shaking as the paper was still in my hand, Draco was sitting next to me watching me as I was sobbing quietly.

"He really loved you Bella" Draco said as he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into his embrace, letting me sob into his chest.

I was quiet, I wasn't able to speak. I just couldn't function, I felt empty inside.

"You should get some rest" Draco said as he stood up and walked me to my dormitory "are you sure that your going to be okay?" He asked

I nodded and he sighed "take care of yourself Bella" he said before he left to his dormitory.

I opened the door to my dormitory and I walked in slowly, observing the things around me, I saw a hoodie on my bed, it was Mattheo's. I picked it up and had it up against my nose and inhaled it, it was his scent.. everything reminded me of him and I felt tears in my puffy eyes once again.

I was alone in the dormitory since the others had gone to their family's after the war, Pansy had gone to our parents house but I just couldn't leave Hogwarts, it was my home and Mattheo was here.. Mattheo was my home.

Shivers were sent down my spine of the thought of him being possibly dead, I started to slowly take of my clothes when I looked at myself in the mirror and realised all of the bruises and scars I had had on my whole body, it was like I had been abused my whole life, I gasped at the sight and decided to take a shower.

I went into my shower and then saw his shampoo by all the soaps, I felt I lump in my throat and I felt the tears in my eyes pouring, while I was in the shower I couldn't stop crying, I was so worried, I felt like I wasn't going to be able to breathe without him.

After my shower I put on his hoodie and some grey sweat pants and laid down on my bed, I felt some sort of need of his presence, my lips were trembling as I was trying so hard not to cry but it was simply impossible, he was truly the love of my life and nothing would change that.

I closed my eyes and I saw him, Mattheo watching me with his beautiful brown eyes and smiling brightly as he saw me "I love you Isabella Parkinson" kept repeating in my head, his voice was repeating in my head and I couldn't make it stop.

Suddenly I felt my breathing become heavier, I began hyperventilating slowly and now I felt like I couldn't breathe and I started to panic "make it stop! make it stop!" my vision was getting blurry and I still couldn't breathe properly, I had my back against the bed frame and my legs against my chest, though I felt my whole body shaking. I was going into a panic attack and I felt like I was going to die.

I heard something open but I couldn't really focus on it, all I focused on was how I couldn't breathe.

I felt someone's hand out my palm, saying something though I couldn't hear "Make it stop!!" I yelled out once again, I was now pulled into someone's embrace and they were slowly brushing my hair with their fingertips.

"Bella, please listen to me"

The person kept my in their embrace and whispered calmly in my ear "it's okay, I'm here".. Mattheo?

Shortly after my breathing became more steady, I looked down at the pale hands who were holding me "Mattheo?!" I blurted out but when I looked up I saw Draco Malfoy in front of me, I felt some sort of guilt when I looked up at him as he gave me a soft smile "God this is so embarrassing" I said as I covered my face "nothing about this is embarrassing Bella" Draco replied

"I'm sorry" I said, guilty

"There's nothing to be sorry about" Draco smiled softly, he pulled me into his embrace "It's okay not to be okay, after everything we've been through" Draco said as he rested his chin on my shoulder while hugging me.