I'm yours if you're mine | Mattheo Riddle x Reader

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We were sitting in a black limo-like car while we were driving towards Malfoy Manor "How come your not staying with your parents, Parkinson" Mr Malfoy said, not very pleased that I was there

"Well, um Mr Malfoy, they probably do not want me there so, I'd rather just stay with someone else, but if it's any disturbance I will of course leave—"

"It's not a problem at all!" Narcissa said smiling brightly and then slowly looking at Lucius "Right, Lucius?"

"Of course." He replied coldly

"She did defeat Voldermort after all, it's an honour" Narcissa said as she took my hand in hers, I tried to smile a little even though all I felt was empty.

Narcissa smile slowly faded, she could clearly see that something wasn't really right "I'm glad you two are okay, your like a daughter to me Isabella"

I felt myself get vulnerable again "I've always seen you as my mother Narcissa"

"We all love you Bella" Draco joined in the conversation "I love you all too"  I replied, Narcissa pulled me into her embrace, hugging me tight.

Slowly after we reached the Malfoy Manor, house elves came out of the house to take our trunks up to our rooms, Draco and I walked up the stairs to the manor and entered the house, different shades of dark green emerged from the walls "Bella.." Draco said once we stepped foot into the house "yes?"

"I think for a few nights you should stay in my room" he said as we walked up the stairs "just so I can have my eye on you, if anything goes wrong, but it's your choice! I won't force you to do-"

"Yes Draco, I'd like that"

He smiled "your going to be okay Bella"

"We could always hope"

—

Pain isn't something that could be described, only something that could be prescribed. Pain is something that's felt and it creates world in your head and it feels like it'll never stop.
It keeps you from getting sleep, feeling any kind of happiness. It makes you feel helpless and vulnerable.
The suffering is the worst part of the pain. The emptiness is worse then it ever has been, the horrible thoughts haunt me in my dreams and all I want is for everything to stop. I need everything to stop.

No matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I want, I will never feel like I'm fully living without him by my side.

I truly want to believe that he'll make it, but a part of me knows that there'll only be a matter of time when the news comes and that is what I am dreading, the wait. When the news comes, everything will be over.

Without Mattheo, I felt like I couldn't breathe, like I was dead without him...

My horrific screams echoed in the room and I woke up anxiously to the sound of Draco's voice begging me to wake up "Bella, Bella your okay, It's just a dream" once I woke up I was immediately startled and shaken up, Narcissa stormed into the room looking extremely worried "Bella?! Is she— oh dear" she said sitting next to me and Draco, rubbing my back slowly. My body was all cold and sweaty.

"Honey, this is not normal we have to do something about this" Narcissa said, my eyes widened when she spoke "No—no we don't it's just a dream—"

Draco shook his head "No, no Bella it's not just a dream it's a lot of dreams, every night, it happens every single night since the war. You're clearly not okay and we only want what's best for you" Draco said staring deeply into my eyes, I broke eye contact and stared at my thighs "Please just—" I felt a tear stream from my eyes "Please don't send me anywhere" I begged

"We won't darling, it's a promise" Narcissa replied as she put her arms around me and hugged me tight, Draco smiled at the sight of us and Narcissa slowly walked out "Bella, are you sure you don't want to talk about it?"

"There's nothing to talk about" I replied, tired and eventually fell asleep with Draco by my side.

—
Draco pov;

Bella slowly fell asleep as I was thinking about the note that Mattheo had given me before the war, no not the same note that Bella got, he had written me one..

'Hey Malfoy, if you are reading this I am probably in a better place now, without the war and without any problems

These last few months have been, how do I explain it, like a rollercoaster. Without you and Bella by my side I don't think I would've made it alive.
You're like a brother to me Malfoy and I hope you felt the same way..

Because of this I am begging you to keep Bella safe, make her forget about me and live the happy life you always wanted with her, I know you love her, I could always see the way you looked at her but I always knew that you were loyal to me.. we both love her and all we want is for her to be happy and please make her happy for me, take care of her for me, love her for me.

Make life worth living for me.

Thank you Draco, take care.

M.R'

Yes it was true, I am in love with Bella.. but I know she'll never feel the same. She found her soulmate and all I wanted was for her to be happy but now her soulmate is gone and all I see when I look at her is a drained and exhausted girl.. I miss the girl she was.
The fierce girl that no one could boss over, not even the Riddles..

It was my job to make her okay, I want her to become herself again.

I never see her go outside anymore, she doesn't talk to anyone but me and my mother, Enzo stopped visiting for some reason and I haven't heard from
Pansy. She only had me and mother at the moment

I admired her features while she was sleeping, she was so beautiful, even with dark circles under her eyes she was perfect, anything you could want in a girl, but she belonged to someone else.. I couldn't take her away from him, I wouldn't make her choose because it's the obvious choice, it's him, it always has been him.

I just wished I could make all her pain disappear..
her pain was indescribable, I could just she it in her eyes, she began mumbling in her sleep and I slowly felt my eyes get heavier and eventually I went to sleep with her by my side.