I fucking hate it here. Though I love my brother with everything in me I can't stand the fact that he gets to tell me how to live my life and he's only two years older than me!
"No Julie, now go back to your room." Clip said brushing me off. "Why do you always do that?" I screeched. "I'm not for the bullshit Ju, get the fuck out my face." He said lighting his blunt.
I looked at Peanut for reasoning. "Ju, he done had a rough day just go to your room." He said. "What about the days that I have huh? Does anyone give a fuck about that?!" I yelled.
"Aye guh watch yo damn mouth!" Clip yelled as I ran to my room. I heard a few knocks on my door. "Yo open up." Peanut said.
I thought about it for a minute, it seems like he just kisses my brother ass most of the time. "Julie I'm not playing open up." He said eagerly.
I walked towards the door and unlocked it. "What? The best thing I could have in this hell hole is a lock on my door." I said sitting back down on my bed.
He walked in and closed the door. "Look he didn't mean it." He said to me. "Oh yeah? Why doesn't he ever come and say that? Huh? Why do I always have to hear that from you. I'm tired of being confined to my room, I'm not a fucking inmate." I said angrily.
"I get that, and you know how your brother is Ju, He doesn't know how to express hisself, you just have to know he's sorry he won't neva say."
"When the hell did that become my problem? You know one day I'm going to go far away from here and I'm not coming back." I spoke and he lifted a eyebrow.
"Yo lil ass betta be talking about college." He stated. "I know you have a brother do you put him through this bullshit?" I asked sincerely.
I know Peanut has a brother, though I've never met him he always tells us stories about him so I know he cares... It's actually weird that Clip and Peanut has been friends since grade school and I've never met his brother... What business do they have going on that Nut feels like he can't bring his brother over here?
"Aye you know I keep my brother separate from my work life. So he can have his own life and nothing I do affects him." He said bluntly.
"Doesn't Clip do the same?" I asked. "Ju look at where you stay... you think you that separate from his work life? He wouldn't have you on lock down if he wasn't all you had. Me and my brother have a mom that cares too much bout us, that's where my brother is... he doesn't have to be with me like how you have to be with Clip... he can't separate you because you need him." He said.
I could tell he was being sincere because well he actually has a point. "I didn't ask for this, I didn't ask for my mom to be a crackhead and my dad to be non existent I didn't pick my life." I said sobbing.
"I know Ju I know but believe it or not this for your safety and everything Clip does is for you." He said hugging me and wiping my tears.
Peanut is like a big brother to me as well. The difference between him and Clip is well not only blood but he's been there for me emotionally. Clip lacks that but everything he doesn't have Peanut makes up for so I guess it weighs out.
"He has a name?" I asked wiping my face. "Who? Deubie?" He asked. "No way Deubie is your brother!" I screeched.
"Yeah, how you know Deubie?" He asked. "Remember? That day at Chika luck you were there I met him through Vae." I spoke honestly.
"Ohh, you didn't see me talking to him?" He asked. "I mean yeah but I didn't think y'all were related." I said. "Mhm." He said.
"So why don't you ever bring him over?" I asked curiously. I wanted to know because that mean me and Deubie could have been cool all this time, and there's so much to like about him.
