I sat in the waiting room of the hospital that I was just at earlier this morning. Why the fuck does it feel like god is punishing me?
"Mr. Banks?" A doctor approached me. "Yeah dawg that's me." I said. "Do you have any contact with the patients family members? Maybe a aunt, parents or anything of that sort?" He asked.
"Nah man ion know nun, why wassup is she good?" I asked. "Well it looks like Ms. Milbourne has suffered a miscarriage and because she's under the age of 18 well, it's under legal action that we have a guardian present." The doctor said as my body shook.
"Yo are you good?" Tyrone asked me getting up from the chair. "A miscarriage? I had a kid? I was going to have a kid?" I said to myself.
"I'm sorry sir what was that? Were you going to be the father of the child?" The doctor asked. "No, I don't know." I said as my vision grew blurry.
I'm 19 and Chi is 17, I know what it may look like to these motherfuckas but what it look like it ain't. I just turned 19, and it ain't legal but who gives a shit. All I know is ole girl was pregnant and if she knew ima beat ha motherfucking ass. Plus if her people found out they would charge me with rape. And ion rape no bitch.
"Would you like to come see her? She's cleared for visitors." The doc said. Tyrone looked at me skeptically. "You sure that's a good idea dawg? Youn wanna just chill out right quick?" He asked me.
"Take me doc, you coming or naw?" I looked at him as he started walking with us.
We walked in the room and I stood there looking at her. "We will be trying to get in contact with her family members." The doc said before leaving.
"Clip... I'm scared." Chi said as tears fell down her face. "You should be." I said upset. "Clip dawg chill. Shawty just lost her baby." Tyrone said. "Matter fact you can wait outside." I told him.
I don't wanna hear shit about how I got anger issues or nunna dat shit. He looked at me then Chi and shook his head before exiting.
"Was it mine?" I asked her bluntly. "What do you mean was it yours ? You forgot you took my virginity and I've only been fucking you since." She said fiercely.
"How I'm supposed to know I'm the only nigga you fucking?" I asked her. "What did you do to the last Nigga that you thought I was talking to and he didn't even get to fuck?" She asked factly.
I remember exactly. I pulled up to the school to pick her up and she talking to some broad by the door. I watched them exchange numbers before she came got in my car. I followed him home and shot his shit up. I ain't gon lie I done put Chi through some shit.
"Did you know?" I asked her seriously and she turned her head away. "Andrea did you know?" I asked and I realized I fucked up.
"What the fuck you just called me?" She asked me vigorously. "You got the nerve to call me that bitch name and she put me here? SHE KILLED OUR BABY and you fucking called me her name?" She yelled.
I walked closer to her before looking into her deeply. "The baby you act like you ain't fucking know about. I should pop you in yo fucking mouth Chi. But you right... I shouldn't of called you her name, she woulda neva did no shit like that. Fighting and you pregnant with my baby bitch." I said angrily, making her cry harder.
"I don't think you realize that the shit you say fucks me up dawg." She said balling her eyes out. "You don't treat that bitch like this why you do me this way?" She asked sorrowfully.
"Dawg ima get out of here before yo dog ass parents come. And when you get outta here, lose my number." I said walking out. She sat there and cried her eyes out, I don't think I give a fuck tho.
See thing bout Chi is, she got all the fucking money in the world and it blinds her from seeing how beautiful and intelligent she is. It makes her feel entitled. Then she let me talk to her any type of way and she do anything I tell her to... it's like damn bitch do you even have a mind of your own?
As I met Tyrone to walk out her parents walked through the door. "What the hell are you doing here?" Mrs. Milbourne asked me. "What did you do to my daughter?" The father asked. "Slutted her out." I said before leaving out the hospital.
"That was mad disrespectful." Tyrone said while we got in the car. "Yo is you my boy or my mentor?" I mugged him. "You tripping dawg, that's yo problem you don't want nobody to tell you shit, when you know damn well you wrong. You my boy but the way you treat ole girl is fucked up." He said honestly.
"Chht whatever bruh." I said pulling off. "Yo slow the fuck down." Ty said as I sped to Andrea's house. "Call her." I said simply.
"Nigga call who?" He asked. I saw him out the side of my peripheral, he looked shooken up. "Nigga call Andrea." I said tossing him my phone.
"The fuck am I calling her for?" He asked unlocking my phone. "FUCK TYRONE. Just call her shit." I yelled as he rung her and put her on speaker. "You fucking tripping." He said sitting back in the seat.
Drea: Yo?
Me: I need you to be outside when I pull up.
Drea: Damn Clip for what? I'm tired.
Me: Be the fuck outside.
Drea: No bro, you just gon have to come by tomorrow.
Me: Bet.
I signaled for Ty to hang up the phone. "Don't do no crazy shit dawg." I heard him say before I sped past a red light "WHAT THE FUCK CA'RYA!" Tyrone yelled.
"If you gon be doing allat fucking yelling I'ma unlock that door and kick yo ass out." I said pulling up to Dreaa crib.
"You doing too fucking much bro, behind a bitch? Mane have you lost yo fucking intel? What happened to fuck these bitches. These hoes got you over yo head bro the fuck happened to you?" Tyrone spoke seriously.
I sat at the wheel outside her house and banged my head against the horn. He was fucking right. These hoes got my head all fucked up bruh. And everything I been holding to just hit me where my dad used to... in my ducking chest.
"Dawg you good?" Tyrone asked. Tears flooded my eyes.
"Why he leave me dawg? Huh. Why my ma gotta be a crackhead ass bitch and my dad leaves like a punk huh? I don't know how to raise Ju, she fucking hates me." I sprawled as he gave me a hug.
"Dawg you gotta let that shit go. And everything you do you it for Ju, she might not see it now but she will." He said patting me on the back. "I just lost my baby yo, a baby I coulda shown love to the right way. A way I never had." I said as tears rolled down my face.
"Mane look at it like this, the way I see it... it prolly wasn't meant to be. I mean hell you can't even love women correctly what you gon do with a baby girl huh? And you don't know how to control you emotions or even be emotionally connected how you gon teach a baby boy that? And Chi not in the right mind space to be anybodies baby mama so dawg maybe it just wasn't time." He said letting me go.
I hate when that nigga right bro, but it seems like he always is...
"This shit not the way, leave that girl alone dawg and go the fuck home." He said as I started the car up.
I'm letting this shit drive me crazy...
