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~Aislinn~

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~Aislinn~

I hate fear. 

It runs through my blood like spoiled ink and tattoos its way through each course of my body until I'm left waiting for the pain and tears to roll in. 

You'll think I'll be used to fear, years in that home afraid who will come in the room. If I miss a single key during piano practice Issac would use his belt and slap my hands into they were red, if I missed another note he will use the belt elsewhere. 

Fear was a strong emotion and it could make you weak or strong, I like to think that it made me strong. But in this case, that same fear tied to the giant baby inside of me. 

My due date was getting closer and closer, I had Jaxon three days before I was supposed to have him, I want to meet my baby boy, I wanna shower him in kisses and go through every single pain just to watch him grow into a strong boy. 

The moment my screams cry out in the hospital room, and my baby is torn away from my arms is the moment my perfect bubble of this world will shatter. A monster will reveal himself, but as much as I hate it for what is about to come. I'm ready. 

"I can't wait till he gets here," Blair smiled, my feet already becoming numb by just how much we were walking the stores, (we just started) but still, Im nine months pregnant crying a child that gonna pop out just as big as Dorian. 

"You know, you haven't told us any names," Drew speaks, she picks up a small little elephant her brown eyes shining so bright before she placed it in the cart. 

They have been dying to know the name me and Dorian picked out, even they will send Jaxon and Nico in with big puppy dog eyes before asking us what their little brother and cousin's name will be. 

And I won't say a word, the names set out since Jaxon. I wasn't sure if I would have another child but after meeting Dorian, I made a list of names for each baby call me crazy. 

"You'll find out when I give birth," I smiled, it was so filled and bright depute the fear lingering in my bones, it was a real smile I have been showing for months now.

They groan as if that will be long from now, honestly I had been so scared to even walk the fear I'll give birth on the spot. 

I huffed, rubbing a lower part of my back as a contraction kicks through. I squint my eyes shut, my shoulders stiffen and my legs would've given out if I didn't grab onto Dante's arms with a death grip.

"Ains? you good?" Dante's cold voice meets my ears, eyes filled with concern. I peaked through my lids seeing his features soften. 

"I'm okay, it's gonna go away," I say, my hollow cheeks letting out a putout chuckle. I look up at the ceiling waiting for it to pass. It takes about seventy seconds before it did. I lost my death grip on Dante's hand and give him a sad smile.

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