Hello! Ah guys, eto na yung bago kong prouloge, pinalitan ko na yung nauna hindi po kase ako nagandahan eh. Hahaha. Sorry po kung magulo, hindi pa po kase talaga tapos eh. ^_^v Pero aayusin ko napo to ngayon. Thank you sa mga babasa at magbabasa palang. Haha. Sorry na paaga yung Authors Note. Haha.
Prouloge:
I want to cry
I want to scream
I want to tell you mostly
I hate that I'm so afraid of everything
I hate that you’re the one thing I want the most but can't have
I hate that you let me go before I got even got to say goodbye
I wish that you would come back to me
I wish I were strong enough to say no to you
I wish I could believe my own lies I use to cover up the pain you left
I need to move on says my head
I need to hold on says my heart
I need to decide says my mind
I envy the way this hasn’t hurt you at all
I envy her
I envy the fact you don’t understand what this feels like at all
I want to hurt you
I want to be with you
I want this nightmare to be over
I wish I could make things they were before you
I wish I could change time
I wish I could change you
I wish I could have hurt you before you hurt me
I wish I would have given you the letter when I wanted
I need you out of my thoughts
I need you out of my heart
I need to start doing things for me
I hate that you used me
I hate that I gave you something I can never have back
I hate that I wasted it with you
I'm tired of hoping aimlessly for you
I'm tired of wanting something I can't have
I'm tired of hurting me for things that aren’t my fault
I'm sorry I was good enough
I'm sorry I defended you when everyone else was right
I'm sorry I couldn’t make you happy
Funny though how you never once said sorry for hurting me,
for breaking me,
for not loving me.
Sabi nga nila kapag nagmahal ka, ibibigay mo ang lahat mapasaya lang siya. Kahit na... nasasaktan ka na ng sobra, okay lang. Makita mo lang siyang masaya , mawawala lahat ng sakit sa isang saglit, ngumiti lang siya. Ako ang dakila niyang bestfriend. Hindi ako gwapo, hindi ako macho kaya anong pag-asa ko sakanya diba? Isang Anne Curtis, tapos Vhong Navarro? Psh! -,- Ang hirap ngang maging bestfriend ang taong mahal mo. Ikaw iiyakan kapag nasasaktan siya. Ikaw tatakbuhan kapag may problema siya. Ikaw pupuntahan kapag wala siyang kasama at pinakamasakit dun, iiwan ka kapag nandiyan na mahal niya. Eh pano naman ako? Nasasaktan din kaya ako. Gusto kong ilabas lahat ng nararamdaman ko dito sa dibdib ko. Pero wala akong ibang mapagsabihan kundi dito nalang rin. Diba ang hirap umasa na mamahalin ka pa ng taong mahal mo? Ang hirap ding isipin na napunta sa wala ang pinagsamahan niyo. Pero higit sa lahat ang hirap tanggapin na limot ka niya kahit alam niya na mahal mo parin siya. Ang sakit diba?
