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Chapter 19. Never Fall In Love

🎶 Jhumritalaiyya

Published on 16.06.2022

| AUTHOR'S POV |

Distance is a funny thing. It makes you realise a lot of things that you didn't even know you need to know. It makes you realise how little or more value a person holds in your life. It's strange how some people can be a part of your daily life and when they get distanced, you don't exactly feel their absence. Life goes on with or without them just as smoothly. You don't feel a void.

And then, there are some with whom you don't even get to spend much time yet you feel as if you've known them forever. When you've to part ways or stay away from them, it's tough. It's not the easiest thing to do when your day finds a way to go back to the seconds spent with them. It's like they've slithered their way in your life and occupied a place and then claimed it as theirs and in their absence, you feel a void and you feel a needle poking that void, making you realise a part of you is empty and can't be filled by any other person.

It's pathetic, isn't it?

How a person can steal a part of you and make it theirs, right under your eyes and you don't even notice. How you suddenly have no control over certain things. And then, it makes you do things that you never believed you would do.

It makes you go to the library because you had heard he does come there sometimes in the morning. So, you visit that place in the morning intentionally in the hope of seeing him. You don't spend time thinking about your behaviour because you know that if you do, you'll end up regretting and chastise yourself labelling your actions as creepy and sick.

It's crazy how you were the one who was impatient and desperate for that one month to be over and get away from her and now you're impatient and desperate again but to simply get one glimpse of her. You know her college timings, you know when does it start so like a fool, you deliberately pass through her college road, lingering a bit around there, hoping you could get lucky.

But fate is a cruel thing. It suddenly seems to hate you two. From making you meet coincidentally when you two didn't even want to doing every possible thing to not make you two run into each other when you both fiercely wish for it, it really played its cards well and is now taking pleasure in your misery.

Surely, you two text each other, have small talks and sometimes even call each other but it isn't satisfactory. There's also more that you want, that you crave. None of you takes an extra step and ask to meet each other because it feels weird and awkward and silly and scary and there are a hell lot of emotions you're dealing with and maybe you're scared to name it or maybe you don't even know what to name it. So, you wait. You wait for the period of time to end because you don't have any other choice. And when you make through it somehow, there's no better feeling as Aristotle said, "patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet".

Inaaya's exams end. They plan to meet in the morning at six thirty which is quite early but Inaaya has classes in the evening and Ayansh needs to report at work at nine in the morning. He texts her the place which is close to her house. It's deliberate and it's a little thing but he found and chose a place which is near to her house, at a walking distance for her. There's this whole area where there's a large ground and park and roads where work and construction is still going on and people come to jog, children come to play, some ride bicycles and some just walk.

Ayansh had been there fifteen minutes earlier in his black t-shirt and grey joggers; a little too excited to meet her after almost a month. She comes five minutes earlier than their discussed time in her orange jumper and black tights only to find him already there. There's hardly anyone beside them this early and those present are taking a walk at a decent distance away from the corner Ayansh chose for them to learn a bike.