Close as strangers | ᴸᵁᴷᴱ ᴴᴱᴹᴹᴵᴺᴳˁ [ENGLISH]

010 | What the fuck is wrong with you, Ruby?

RUBYツ

I don't remember anything at all. Not how I ended up in the hospital here, or why my left hand is bandaged. But then it all came crashing down on me.

Me taking some sedatives because once again I couldn't fall asleep. How I got hungry and tried to open the damn box and slipped the knife. Altias shaking me awake afterwards. The blood, Mom's crying look.

I overdid it this time.

I've come to a point in my life where I need help. God, I know, it's just... I don't have anything that makes me enjoy life anymore. I feel like I'm just a speck in this world.

Not significant.

Frighteningly, I wouldn't even have cared if I'd died today. I would be with Mickey.

When the eyes opened, I looked into my mother's eyes. "Why?" was her only question.

I said nothing, looked around the room.

Ashton, Calum, Dad, Altias and Grace are standing here looking disappointed. Yes I know I'm a disappointment.

Before I could open my mouth, the doctor came in and sent everyone out so he could run some tests on me.

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I didn't get out of the hospital until the next day. Mom didn't come in anymore, or my dad. Grace was with me all the time, as well as Calum, Ash, and Altias.

I'm really glad to see her.

I just closed the apartment door after saying goodbye to Altias and actually just wanted to go to bed and sleep, but then I remembered something that I had forgotten. It's simple and I really should be doing it.

So I just put my suitcase in the bedroom and took off my jacket before I left the apartment, but left the door open and knocked directly on Altia's door.

Not a second later the door opened.

"Ruby?" he asked, clearly confused.

I bit my lower lip briefly, then pulled myself together and hugged Altias, something I really like, but he deserves it. "I thank you".

"Ruby?" I freeze in my neighbor's arms when I heard the voice. So real, not miles away. Altias looked in the direction the voice was coming. "Luke Hemmings?"

Luke is here.

I pulled away from Altias, turned to face him and looked into the angry eyes of my ex-boyfriend from youth. "What is.." he began and very briefly christened his blond curls. Altias understood the gesture because he very quietly closed the door behind him.

I crossed an arm across my chest and pressed my lips together. He knew, Luke knew about the incident. Where from?

"What the fuck is wrong with you, Ruby?" he yelled at me.

My heart clenched in pain and I had to look down. "How do you know?" I whispered.

"How do I know that?" He gave a slightly bitter laugh, like I'd made a bad joke. Oh my god, he's really angry.

"Calum said you wanted me to come and here I am."

Oh.. did I have that?

Suddenly the memory of it shot into my head and I bit my lower lip harder.