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RUBYツ

Micheal was gently lifted into the grave while the minister read a few sentences from the Bible. I'm not a believer, but I believe in seeing everyone again sometime when my time comes. Nothing will change about that.

Grace was standing next to me in all black and just hacked at me. She's the only friend of mine who came. Kayla can kiss my ass like that. I needed her more than anything today.

When I'm home soon, I'll block them first. It's not the first time she's not there for me.

Mom and Dad stood next to Crystal and cried in silence, as did one or the other. I, on the other hand, feel empty, parched, tired. The speech just asked everything of me.

Ashton and Calum stood to one side while Luke sat on a bench further away. Elbows on knees. Burying his face in his hands, he seems to be crying. His blond hair has grown a lot longer than the last time I saw him.

How long has it been now?

four years? Five? Very long. My life may have moved on, but seeing him again opens more than old, healed wounds. We had been together then, it had actually been a short time, but Luke left his mark. Definitely, because it hurts more than it should to see him sitting there.

Micheal found out about us back then and then..Luke left, broke up saying it was a mistake and I'm his best friend's sister. i was a mistake I was young and Luke was my first love.

It wasn't nice to hear those words.

After the Sag disappeared, he was buried. I didn't move but looked down at my brother.

It's okay Ruby.

No Michael. This time you're wrong, because nothing is okay.

Then all of a sudden it was over. The guests didn't leave immediately, no, because there is still a small celebration at home. Why should you give up coffee and cake? I grimaced slightly because it felt like people had suddenly forgotten the reason they were here.

Life goes on, doesn't it?

The earth keeps turning and turning.

It's cruel.

Ashton and Calum were talking to Mom before glancing at Luke, who was still sitting on the bench like he was five minutes ago. Were you worried about him?

What does Michael's death mean to the band now anyway?

I press my lips together and then I felt a drop of rain on my warm skin. Perfect weather, brother.

"Luke," Calum called. The addressed looked up. "Are you coming? We want something to see Mrs. and Mr. Clifford".

He shook his head. "No, I'll stay here a little longer".

"But it's raining," Ash now said. "Come on".

Grace nudged my arm lightly. I tore my eyes away from the grave and looked at her. "Shall we go home?".

It would stay for me, I knew that, but now it was clearly starting to rain, it was like a waterfall. My hair is soaking wet, as is my black dress. Grace didn't look much better, nor did Luke, Ash or Calum.

"You go ahead with something. I just want to say goodbye," I said. This time with a cracked voice. She nodded and then left me alone.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Luke give me a quick look before getting up from the bench and walking after Ash.

Will my heart ever really let go of him?