patient or past?

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around an hour had passed by and you were sat in your office prepping some plans in your diary for work this week so you wouldnt be so stressed and could actually fit in breaks, food and spare time at home for cooking, shopping and showers.

tomorrows appointments:
ashton appointment-saturday, 7pm

oh no, ashton.

you sighed picking up your phone and calling him

2nd ring..
4th ring..

7th ring? no answer.

what is he doing? being late to his session and now not answering when im calling him? is he joking?

you chuckled in disbelief sending him a message

"a little rude how ur showing up late now dodging my calls? call me when ur fucking free ashton but until then im not booking ur appointments in"

you sent the message throwing your phone done and rubbing your forehead

i shouldn't have bothered with him. we moved way too quickly and now his gone on ghosting mode? just my luck with love.

rowan-what we annoyed about?
rowan asked sweetly from behind you

jesus christ he scared me. i didn't even hear him come back in

you-fucking ashton. his now dodging my phone calls
you chuckled closing your files and books turning around to rowan

rowan-you want me to be honest?

you sighed
you-you might aswell

rowan-fuck him.
he began, pushing his body off the doorframe and making his way over to you

rowan-you don't need a big muscular guy on ur shoulder, your good enough on your own and if im being honest with you, his a little quick to move onto you

you-thats exactly what i was thinking. we've kissed, fucked and it hasn't even been 2 weeks. im just throwing myself onto a man i barely know anything about and its showing just how desperate i am
you admitted beginning to tear up sounding stupidly in love as rowan's arms fell around you dragging you to stand up with him

rowan-dont you dare start crying over him y/n
he demanded clearly annoyed

you looked up to rowan as he wiped your tears

you-i just want to be loved. i feel so alone all the time rowan and for just a split second he made me feel loved.

rowan-i want to tell you a little secret but im gonna need the tears to stop
he smiled running his hands up and down your arms

you ran your hands onto his clearing your throat and stopping your tears

rowan-i have always loved you y/n

you smiled lightly watching him slide his hands onto ur face

rowan-it's always going to be you, ive never stopped loving you
he whispered glancing from one eye to the other

you-but i dont deserve you rowan you-

rowan-dont you dare say that ever again
he demanded leaning closer to your face

rowan-you deserve every single bit of me y/n. you need somebody to take care of you and i want to be that person. yes your a therapist and you help people but nobody thinks about you, ever

you-thats true but i cant dump my issues onto you

rowan-you just did and i listened remember? it felt so good to hear your voice ranting about your horrible day and for me to fix all those problem with a little kiss

you-can you do it again
you asked almost in a whispered feeling his soft lips take all the pain away.

you wrapped your arms around him as he gently pulled back

rowan-i love you
he whispered running his hands around to the back of your head giving you a hug

you-i love you too
you whispered appreciating how much his done for you

dating or not his been the most caring person in your life and you'd always thank him for that

rowan-take some of your own advice, breathe and relax your gonna be just fine

you-because ur here

he smiled against your neck

rowan-because im here and im not going anywhere

his not going anywhere.

he never has

sorry if there are any spelling mistakes