patient or past?

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you woke up a few hours later to gail with some food

gail-hey it's 6pm i've got you some fries from the bar
he smiled sat beside you

you-thank you
you smiled sitting up rubbing ur head

gail-feeling any better after ur nap?

you shook ur head
you-a little i guess? i still feel weird i don't know whats up with me

gail-its okay i'll stay with you we can watch a movie
he smiled sliding in beside you letting you lie on him whilst you ate your fries

you-ur a good guy gail
you whispered looking up at him as he smiled glancing down to you

gail-if i said ur a good girl back it would seem a little weird so i won't
he whispered making you laugh

you-yeah, little creepy

you-have you had a cigarette since last night?
you asked and he shurgged

gail-i tried not too if that counts

you sighed
you-gail you need to find another escape cigarette aren't good for you

gail-ive tried i really have but i cant survive my mornings without one y/n

you smiled
you-thats okay, maybe whilst we're here don't buy any. ur not allowd to buy any cigarettes that's my challange to you

he closed his eyes letting his head fall back ad he sighed
gail-ive only got 6 left in my box y/n you dont understand

you-then ur limited to those 6 for 2 weeks, 6 is better than 14 gail
you slid your hand onto his as his head glanced down to your hand

you-you've got this, once we're back in my office i can find you a solution. do you like to workout?

gail-sometimes? i go once a week but that's nothing

you-okay so change that cigarette to a gym session

gail-thats alot of gym sessions
he chuckled gazing at you.

gail-hearing ur voice would help, you telling me not to have a cigarette

you-here give me ur phone
you smiled getting passed his phone and you tapped onto voicenote recording him one..

you-don't smoke that cigarette gail, trust me its just ruining your perfectly good body. how about going for a run or some food, if you need me you know where i am
you said ending the note sliding him his phone back

gail-thank you i'll listen to that everytime i need a cigarette

you-dont flatter me, go get me a drink
you shoved him making him laugh as he left the room your phone began to ring

ashton

you-hey you
you smiled seeing his face on the call

ashton-woah miss ghost over there, you don't look too good you okay?

you-i think i gave myself food posioning this morning
you sighed rolling over

ashton-and you still decided to go on the trip like that!?
he asked concerned

you-yeah i couldn't ditch, if im still not feeling the best tommorow tho i'll be home
you watched his smile rise as he stood his phone up you noticed his chest all red

you-ashton, what happened
you asked staring at him

ashton-huh? um i just got super happy because i may be seeing you again tommorow and the panic is over
he chuckled clearly not understanding

you-no, ur chest

ashton-oh that's nothing
he brushed it off and you sat up curious and serious about ur question

you-ashton what happened tell me

ashton-i didn't fuck anybody if that's what ur so worried about

you-i wouldn't care if you did i would care if somebody hurt you, did anybody hurt you?

ashton-no i did it to myself, this isn't a therapy session i'm not ruining ur day
he smiled

you cut video call off placing the phone to your ear as gail came back in you stood up walking around the room, practically pacing worried

you-you cant ruin my day anymore than its already ruined i probably have food posioning and ive been napping all day, i care about you and i don't want you to be harming yourself in anyway

ashton-i wanted to see ur face to make it all better come back to facetime baby

you-no, your gonna tell me what happened im not ur therapist for nothing

ashton sighed
ashton-well i felt like a dick for practically cheating on you so i taught myself a lessons
he admitted and you covered ur face going into the bathroom closing the door

you-you cant be doing that ash that's self harm. if ur doing that over me im the problem you should not be feeling like that ive told you it's okay

ashton-but it's not okay y/n ive quite literally cheated on you, multiple times

you-its ur coping mechanism that's got nothing to do with me. ive told you we can try and fix it

ashton-no we can't!
he shouted frustrated now letting the call fall silent for a few minutes..

ashton-i didn't mean to shout but you don't understand y/n i gave up drugs, lowered my alcohol intake and stopped harming myself this is my last coping mechanism i can't let it go i'll be trapped in my trauma

you-what about journaling and poetry, what did you used to do with that?
you asked calmly worried for him

ashton-i used to write about my day and poems of people that's literally it

you-what sort of people

ashton-lovers, friends, pretty strangers i saw on the train
he chuckled

ashton-you, i'd write all about you y/n
he whispered passionately

you-so do it and when im back i'll read it and we can think of other people who you can write about yeah?

ashton-ur perfect
he muttered and you heard the softness in his voice

you-so are you, theres no need to hurt yourself
you whispered back

ashton-i hope you come back tommorow

you-i most likely will i look like a ghost and feel like jelly
you both chuckled

ashton-i love you
he paused taking a deep breathe

ashton-so much. you take my breathe away i can't breathe around you, i can be myself, feel free and loved and i want you to know how much you mean to me

you smiled now bright red blushing from him

you-i needed that
you whispered and he chuckled

ashton-i know you did baby
he replied requesting facetime and you chuckeld accepting it and his smile grew at ur blushing face

ashton-i'll see you tommorow

you-yeah yeah
you ended on a sarcastic note fixing yourself up in the mirror washing ur face and having some water now getting back into bed beside gail

you-could you go tell quince i'd like to to home tommorow, and give him the biggest apology ever gail  if i feel better during the week i'll join you guys

gail-sure i can, get some rest
he left the room and you snuggled back up falling soundly asleep.

sorry if there are any spelling mistakes