patient or past?

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you-i know i shouldn't but it was through the stupid windows

rowan giggled
rowan-i know i heard it all

you-you did?

rowan-mhm, your dads got a place in the finals and ashton realises what an idiot he is for losing you

he hasn't lost me his just hurt me.

rowan-if it wasn't enough coming from him, ur gorgeous y/n

you smiled against his cheek kissing it gently again

you-thank you baby

rowan-ive upgraded to baby hm?

you-i can easily take it back dont be so cocky

he giggled laying gentle kissed up your neck towards your cheek

you-rowan its 2am i want to go to sleep

rowan-no you dont

his right. i wanna turn over and stare into ashton's eyes for hours.

you-yes i do
you whined rolling over facing ashton

his eyes fluttered open after he had blinked

ashton-his good for you
he mouthed

oh no. he heard everything didn't he. im such an idiot

you-so are you
you mouthed back seeing him smile

rowan's kisses continued before he leant over your body you giggled

you-1 kiss that's all ur getting

rowan-what about 5
he smiled

you-no 1

he frowned
rowan-but i wont survive all night with just 1

you giggled meet his lips in a soft kiss that turned into two and then three with his tounge sliding off yours

you pulled back hitting the pillows

rowan-3, i can deal with 3
he smiled rolling back onto the bed making you giggle

his body faced you and his hand ran over your lower stomach gazing at you now wide awake

you-what you gazing at

rowan-your beautiful face

you-rowan-

rowan-i know i know, getting over ashton's mistakes and all

you-no i wasn't going to say that, i was gonna do this
you leant in kissing his lips again

pity kisses before i break his entire heart into pieces and i feel terrible about it

he smiled as you slid ontop of his body kissing his lips slowly enjoying every moment.

you began to move lightly against him before he pulled back

rowan-ur not ready stop trying to force it on yourself

you slid his hand onto your chest

you-does this feels wrong to you?

you ran his hand down to your thigh

you-does it feel wrong rowan?

he lay staring before he sighed

rowan-if ur ready then im not ready
he stated placing you beside him

you-what
you said confused pulling his head to yours

rowan-you could go running back to ashton at any given point y/n. i need to be fully reassured that your for me and not him. 1 night of cuddles and kisses isn't going to show me that.

he rolled over facing away from you as you sat up in shock

you-ur right, i probably will go running back ashton because im a soft little bitch
you state loud enough for any of them two to hear.

you grabbed your pillow getting up from the bed

rowan-what are you doing, y/n i didn't mean it like that
he sighed turning to see you pulling a smaller blanket from your closet

you-sleeping on the couch
you replied walking out and closing the door behind you

rowan-y/n!
he called out as you set up your little bed on the couch almost in tears

you-his not ready. his not fucking ready. all this time i thought i was being an idiot but his just insecure that i'd leave him and doesn't fucking trust me which is understandable but come on rowan
you spoke to yourself before falling back onto the couch letting the tears fall

you-why am i crying, im so sick of crying
you said rubbing the tears away

ashton-hey
his voice called out as you glanced up to him sat on his couch with a pillow too

you smiled giving him a wave

ashton smiled at the wave waving back

ashton-why the tears?
he asked concerned but already knew the answer

you put your finger on your lips pointing to the room

you-he heard us last time
you mouthed slowly for him to red ur lips hearing him chuckle and roll onto his stomach staring at you

you lay down pulling the blanket over you as he titled his head against the pillow just lying and staring

running around with ashton like this makes me so excited

i feel young again.

rowan's right. im just gonna run back to this man

sorry if there are any spelling mistakes