oops. || steddie fanfic

the new beginning.

you know that feeling? the morning after a rough night. the way the guilt consumes you and your stomach feels like it's moments away from falling out your ass. your throat feels so dry and heavy that you can't even choke out any words.
yeah. that feeling. that's exactly how steve felt once he told his mother about his college plans. they had a beautiful house in ohio; honestly, everything was perfect.

but it wasn't. steve didn't feel right. it was like there was some sort of piece missing. he assumed it was not having a girlfriend, since he didn't exactly have luck with getting one. he could never score a single date. he had the looks, sure, but every girl thought he was too much of a dork. lovely.
his mother was mostly upset that he didn't tell her about his plans to move to indiana. she spoke softly when she told him about how upset she was. steve knew she was trying to sound nice, but it honestly just made him feel worse about it.

now he's here; moving the boxes into his dorm room with his mother. she hadn't smiled the entire time. that guilt feeling from earlier was back. once they had both finished setting down all the boxes into his (average sized) apartment, his mom gave him a soft kiss on the forehead. tears were in her eyes. shit, shit, shit. feelings.

steve gently took his mothers hand, giving it a polite but longing squeeze. fuck, he was gonna miss her. "don't worry, mom. i'll be fine! besides, i'll have a dorm mate. i'll call you whenever possible and i'll write to you, i promise." once steve finished speaking, he watched as a single tear fell down his mothers cheek. she then finally smiled; a real smile.

"i love you so much. thank you for continuing to chase your dreams. your sister would be so, so very proud of you," she whispered under a bit of a choked sob. steve smiled back, pressing his forehead to his mothers. they stayed like that for a few moments, before steve decided to walk her to her car. they had one last hug, and it felt like she had disappeared forever once her car drove off.

now he was alone.

steve felt like he was dragging his feet as he walked back up to his dorm. his roommate, jonathan, was apparently going to be staying with him. once he arrived to his dorm, he let out a huff and puffed out his cheeks. unpacking time.