oops. || steddie fanfic

what did i do?

"there you go, buckley. your lovely bed is all set up again."

as soon as eddie said that, robin plopped herself on the couch and exhaled loudly, a groan following. steve rolled his eyes at her behavior, before locking eyes with eddie. and wow, okay, he was already staring first.
"harrington... follow me. we're not going to bed yet."

steve watched as eddie headed out of his trailer and he glanced at robin, before following right after him. he had to slightly jog to catch up to eddie since he walked pretty fast. but eddie took notice of steve struggling to catch up and he lessened the pace of his walk. eddie unlocked his car and opened the passengers door for steve. steve seemed reluctant to get in.

"don't worry. i'm not gonna kidnap you. just trust me," eddie reassured him, and steve got in the car. eddie followed shortly after and started up his car. steve buckled his seatbelt since he knew eddie was quite the reckless driver sometimes.

the car drive was silent. steve felt like his body was going to explode from heat. his hands were sweaty and no matter how much he rubbed his hands on his jeans, they stayed sweaty. eddie seemed to notice how nervous steve was and he snickered to himself, tapping on the steering wheel.

"relax, harrington. you look like i'm about to kill you. it's just me, man." eddie reached over and placed his hand on steves thigh, patting it a generous amount of times. steves eyes shot down to eddies hand and he fought back the urge to place his hand over eddies and tell him to keep it there. but eddie moved his hand back before steve could gain the courage to do that. eddie took a deep breath and gripped the steering wheel tighter. he seemed to do that when he was nervous, too.

after a few more minutes of silence, eddie parked and steve looked up from his lap, squinting his eyes so he can see outside better. it was pitch black outside.
"..yeah, this isn't creepy at all. where are we, exactly?"

"have you ever heard of skull rock, harrington?"

"uh, no. i just moved here. is that some sort of makeout place or something?"

"exactly. come on."

steve nervously followed eddie once they both got out of his car, wiping his sweaty hands on his jeans once again. once he saw the rock, a small smile crossed his face as eddie took a seat against it. "this is kinda my hangout spot.. when a couple isn't sucking face."

steve took a seat next to eddie and they were awfully close. like, extremely close. steve could hear eddies breathing and it was shaky. plus, he proceeded to constantly fidget with his rings. was he nervous?
"you know, you tell me not to worry, but you seem more nervous than me, munson. is something wrong?"

"aha, me? i seem nervous? yeah. i don't know.. it's just- do you ever feel impossible to be loved?"

"impossible how?"

"like- you meet someone, you get to know them, then you really fall for them, and then poof. they're just gone... like, they got what they wanted and then they're gone."

there was a moment of silence. steve readjusted his position so he was sitting closer to eddie. eddie let out a sad chuckle and wiped his face.
"sorry. i always seem to get sappy around you." steve shook his head and placed his finger under eddies chin, pushing it up so they could make eye contact. eddies eyes looked even glossier in the dark and steve missed the sight. he sighed and brought his hand up to eddies cheek.
"listen, if any girl uses you or does stupid shit to you again, don't let her get to you. i can help set you up if you want."

eddie let out a fake smile and moved his head away from steve, scooting away just slightly. did steve say something? did he make him uncomfortable? "yeah, yeah. thanks, bud. i'm sure you get all the chicks," eddie replied bitterly, standing up and brushing any dirt or leaves off of him. "we should get going," he added. "it's late."

"right. yeah. sure," steve said, standing up after eddie and clearing his throat. what the fuck did he do?

~

eddie still hadn't said a word to steve since.

even when he was getting ready for bed, he didn't speak as he got tucked in. steve watched eddie get cozy and he awed at the sight. but he couldn't stand the silent treatment.

"i don't understand, eddie."

"don't understand what?" he asked dryly, avoiding steves gaze.

"i don't understand why the fuck you wont look at me! you haven't spoken to me in forever and i have no fucking clue i did. just tell me so i can fix it."

"don't you get it steve?" eddie asked, his voice raising and a scoff leaving his lips. he got out of bed and stood up, staring into steves eyes. he was a little smaller but it wasn't much. they were still about eye level.

"i have been trying so hard to make you realize that i don't want a girl. i don't need a girl in my life and i don't want one, either."

"but you said-"

"i was talking about GUYS, steve. all my life, guys have been using me and refusing to accept the fact that they actually like me! i've been trying so hard to get you to see that i like dudes- that i'm gay. and you still can't see it. how oblivious are you, harrington?!"

there was a huge moment of silence. bigger than there ever has been. steve hesitantly brought his hands up and gripped eddies waist, pulling him by his hips into a hug. an actual hug. eddies body went stiff as he just stood there for a few seconds. steve began to regret what he did before all of that vanished when eddie hugged him back. steve sighed in relief and relaxed his body, squeezing eddie so tight he was almost suffocating him.

they were interrupted by robin walking in.

"hey- oh, oh! sorry. i just heard yelling and.. yeah. sorry."

steve couldn't see robin from where he was standing, but he could practically see her reaction. eddie gained the pleasure of actually seeing her and a small snicker was heard from him. steve laughed a little bit too, which made eddie burst into laughter while holding him tighter. they rocked side to side a little bit while laughing and steve finally pulled away.

"let's get some sleep, loverboy," steve suggested, ruffling eddies hair.