Sincerely, Yours

21 ~ stage

RILEY'S POV

Life has rules, don't kill people, gauge their eyes out, or rob old people of their last eight dollars. Why is it so many people don't follow them?

It's been a week, seven days, and no call or a text or anything. It's like I merely never existed to him. Chrismas is in a week, I'm supposed to be happy and jolly and I want to gauge someone's eyeball's out.

I get to the lot filled with Christmas trees, they all look the same. "Can I get your smallest tree well not the smallest but a medium or something close?" I ask a lady standing there, "Yes this way." I follow her they still all look the same. "Okay, thanks," I say swallowing the lump in my throat, I imagined Marco cutting down a tree that we would use- it doesn't matter.

I drag a tree to the counter "How much is this?" I ask, "$45." I slide the money on the counter, "Is someone going to help get this to my car?" I scream trying to get someone's attention, "Yes, Ma'am I will." A guy says taking the tree from my hand. "Im, not a ma'am," I smile leading him to my car, he puts the tree in my truck so it's laying down. "Thanks," I smile while getting in my car.

I call Aria, "bring the Christmas decorations, I got the tree." "Okay I'll be there in twenty," she says before hanging up. I begin driving home listening to only the tree clacking around in the trunk. I get home and brag it into the elevator and into my home. Maybel begins smelling the tree, "Maybel we are going to be jolly and happy because it's Christmas." I smile while picking her up, "And ignore the fact that your old dad left me, disappeared, and left us we are going to ignore that."

I stand the tree up and lock it in the tree stand, and then Aria walks in the door, "I found someone downstairs." To say I was hoping it was Marco was an understatement, "Chase hey." I say disappointed, "People have even happier to see me." "I thought you were Marco who left me." His face fills with shock, "Did you bring liquor? I drink all of mine." I say while fixing the tree branches, "Yes, and decorations." Aria says while putting a bag full of decorations on my living room floor. "You and Chase can decorate and I will drink," I smile before taking the bottle of liquor out of her hand.

"He just left, gone disappeared, and doesn't text, or call. I mean who does that? He is an asshole a big one, his actual asshole wasn't that big but the sex was really good which only makes me even madder, who does that, and my sex, my sex was awesome I'm awesome at sex." I say while drinking straight from the bottle, "are you trying to seduce us?" Aria asks while putting streams around the tree.

stage two: anger

"You know when I should've left when I found out Mc Hotty was Mc Married and didn't tell me that's when it should've been over but he was so, gentleman like." I begin feeling the alcohol, Chase takes it from my hands and I reach for it. "I will win in a who's life is more shitty just let me," He says before taking a sip of it, "No you need to help Aria decorate." I take the bottle back, and he groans before stringing lights around the tree. "Stringing the lights how Marco strung me along only to leave, I need to break someone have anything?" I ask before standing up, Aria hands me an ornament. I crush it with my bare hands, "How about you just sit down where you can do no harm." Aria says putting her hands on my shoulder, "Fine but have you and Elijah had sex yet?" I ask, "Riley!" Chase screams while looking at me, "sorry sorry." I groan while laying my head on the pillow.

"Would you believe me if I said that I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life?" I ask most definitely drunk, I take another big sip of the alcohol "hopefully I'm not pregnant," I laugh joking. "Are you on your period you always get it during Christmas time?" Aria points out, I'm not on my period. "It's just late because of stress," "Sure." She mumbled, "Aria im not pregnant." I say more seriously, "I'm not even sober enough to think about this."

I drift into a sleep, a drunken sleep. "We're done!" Aria said excitedly, I peaked opened my eyes and it looked like Santa threw up in my house. "Oh my god," I whisper while wiping my eyes. "Oh my god," I say louder, "Coffee for you." Chase says while handing me a mug, "thanks." I mutter before grabbing it, "what did you and Aria do?" I ask still looking around, "decorated." "Where's Aria?" I ask, "she went to buy you a pregnancy test." "What?" I ask, "well you sai-" I interrupt him. "I know what I said and what she said but she what?" I begin feeling nauseous, "don't say anything." I say while grabbing my stomach. 

"No, no, no, no." I whisper, "no, I'm just hung over." I try to convince myself, "are you okay?" "Chase do I look okay, shut up." Im screwed or knocked up, both. 

Aria walks in, "good your up now take the test." She hands me the box, "Aria, I'm not pregnant." I say trying to sound sure, "So prove it." I grab the test, "I will but if I am the baby will have eleven fingers and twelve toes, and a teratoma sucking its blood I have to tell you something about something that happened a while ago." I say before walking into my room. 

"What is it?" she asks closing the door behind her, "A had a baby when I was raped, I told you I was going to see my mom but she died, her name was Allison," I say, I couldn't talk about it when it happened but I've healed. "How, did she die?" "She had a heart defect, they tried to fix it but she died in surgery." "Riley, why didn't you tell me," she says with a softness in her voice. "Because you're looking at me like I'm a broken record, so if I am pregnant which I'm not then this baby will die too, or at least I think it will so take the test and leave me alone," I say while shoving the test onto her chest. 

I run into the bathroom and pick up my phone, I call Marco and get voicemail. "Marco if just come back to let me know you're okay, or alive please Marco I'd do anything for one moment, did you know I can't remember our last kiss, I would do anything to remember it god to feel you again please just call me or something, anything please do anything," I say before hanging up. 

stage three: bargaining

I walk back out into the living room, "I gave mom some money and she just disappeared I brought her a phone and she disappeared." Chase says looking sad, "give her an inch and she'll take a foot." I say before grabbing my cup of coffee. "Riley you could be  sensitive." Chase mocks, "I told you if you want crappy things to stop happening to you then demand more that doesn't mean give your drug addict of a mom money or trust her it means to put your foot down and grow up." 

He sighs loudly, "she  's our mother." he says, I was focused on the fact that I couldn't for the life of me remember our last kiss because you never think the last time will be the last time, you think they'll be more but there won't be and I wish like hell there would be.

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