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I'm so scared. I don't like getting hurt.
"You're so annoying! You like pink too! Ew!" "Hey! Leave her alone!" The girl looked at me in disgust, as she kicked a rock towards my face and walked away with her other friend, hand in hand. "Hey I'm sorry about them! Are you okay?" "Yeah thanks. I'm emu! And you?"
"I'm y/n!" they say, putting their hands on their hips. "That's so cool! Can we be friends??" "Yes!!" "Do you want to come over to my house and play dress up! I got this new costume its like a candy!" "Yes emu!"
"Woah, this is your house! Cool!!" I giggle and lead her to my closet. "Here you go! You wear this one and I'll wear this one!" I beam, taking out the clothes out of the closet. I take one outfit and hand it to them. "Im done!!" "Umm........ emu! Can you help me zip it...? Uhh emu? Are you okay? You're frozen." "Oh um yeah sorry! I'll help you zip it." Am I scared of her?
"Yay!! Hehe." "Ahh emu you almost hit me with a car!" "I know🤭"
"Emu, its gonna be okay. I promise." Y/n puts their hand on top of mines on my lap. "I just wish I could.. See what other people know. What they think. I just want to make people happy." I'm so week crying in front of her. I'm supposed to be the happy one. All my life I'm the happy one. Why am i breaking my status now? This isn't very pachow :(.
"Hey its okay. Sometimes people are gonna hate no matter what and we just have to accept it. People are gonna hate you because your 'too nice and fake' or 'too rude' either way. And I promise you this, there's absolutely nothing wrong with you, Emu-san. You're perfect, everything about you is. From your pink hair to your giddy attitude and brainless thoughts." "Hey! Thank you though... Y/n."
Maybe one day i'll be able to comfort you the same way you did to me ✩
"Emu I wanna show you something!! Come!" I dead panned. "Y/n. What is that?." I turned to y/n who was now sitting across the park bench. They put the bracelet in my hands and closed them with both of their hands. "it's a bracelet made to go with that one costume you had when you were little! You dont like it?" I blink twice at them. "N-No! It's cute!! Thanks y/n." "Wear it!!" "O-okay." "I made it all by myself. I know I'm not a good bracelet maker.. And I may or may not have searched up a YouTube tutorial to make that-" "It's okay! I love it thank you!
"Well maybe I can have other friends too!" "Of course you can have other friends y/n! But you just left me for them!!" "I know! I didn't mean too! I just wanted to hang out with them today! Not my fault I don't have a phone to text you. But believe me emu, I would of told you I was!" "That's the thing! I don believe you! You haven't been a good friend lately y/n. And now you ditch me??" "I never ditched you!! Why can't you get that! I just wanted to hang out with other people you know, and I'm sorry. Why can't you be as understanding as they are-" "Okay fine. Have fun with your new friends y/n. I never knew I became best friends with such a careless, ignorant, person." "E-Emu!!"
Y/n is running late today. I made lunch for her too! I really wanted to make her smile. I guess I'll just eat this one and make her another one tomorrow. I really wanted to apologize too. Maybe she'll be here tomorrow!
Y/n didn't come today either? That is so weird. Maybe she just got really sick She'll be back tomorrow, im sure.
Y/n didn't come today either. 3 days?? Sheesh y/n! How bad did you get sick?? I get off of the windowceel. I think I'm gonna stop staying here after class for her if she doesn't come again. I grab my bags and head out the classroom door. "Looking for y/n?" "Gah! Oh uh yeah!" The teacher laughs. "They've been absent for quite some time. Im pretty confident they'll be back tomorrow though." "Right!" I nod.
Tomorrow?
"Hey what about that one person you were looking for 24/7 emu?" "Oh y/n? Yeah I gave up looking for them- they didn't show up for weeks so I assumed they transferred." "Are you okay emu? Who's y/n?" "What?" "I'm talking about homura. I have no clue who y/n is." "Does y/n even exist? Wasn't that the name of someone who died a while back?" "What?" "Y/n died a while ago ."
No they didn't. What do they mean. What are they talking about? This all my fault.
"Excuse me, I have to use the restroom." Lies. I lied. They lied. They are liers. Im a liar. This is all my fault. I should of said sorry. I should of never said those things. I hate myself. I'm so stupid. Why did i do that? Why? Why? Why would i ever say that to someone important to me? I was just jealous. Jealous and stupid. And looked what that caused! I'm supposed to make people happy! Not make people suffer. I am such a stupid stupid failure. I'm sorry y/n. I'm so sorry. Please remember me. If only I could go back in time. If only I could prevent any of that. Should I have been with them more? Should I have let them go? I can't let them go. That's part of the reason they are here right now. I can't let go.
"I never wanted this to happen. I'm so sorry y/n."
