111 • EDDIE MUNSON X READER

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nancy gave me a blanket as i settled on the sofa.

"we should get going.." dustin said, noticing the time as they all started to say their goodbyes and left.

"y/n.. i'm at home, okay?" max said as i simply nodded before she disappeared.

eddie closed the door after she left and went back to cooking, not saying a word.

"can i watch tv?" i asked as he nodded.

i sighed as he didn't reply, and just grabbed the tv remote to switch on the TV.

i struggled with the stupidly confusing buttons.

eddie sighed and walked up to me, taking the TV remote before handing it back.

"eddie" i said.

"eddie why are you so confusing?" i asked as he still didn't reply.

"why do you so suddenly ignore me?"

"i'm just thinking y/n." he said, as he was cooking what seemed to look like soup back in the kitchen as the water boiled.

"about?"

"you, your health, mental and physical, and this fucked up curse going around, i'm scared for you" eddie said.

"it's just a hangover eddie..."

he sighed and went back to the kitchen as i watched, eyebrows furrowed as his concern for me made me sad.

"don't be scared for me"

"it's not that easy" he said, cooking and cooking.

"i've seen many things, i don't think vecna will affect me" i said.

"many things?" he asked, as he slowly started to finish making the food and finally faced me when pouring the soup to separate bowls.

"yeah. many" i said.

"as in?"

i smiled over his curiosity.

"i watched.." i said, hesitating on whether i should say it or not.

"you know what- never mind" i said.

"no y/n, tell me" he said as he now carried the bowls to the sofa and sat himself next to me before handing me one of the bowls.

"what is this?"

"chicken soup"

i just nodded, looking at it before i started eating and so did he.

we watched the TV quietly until he spoke.

"can you tell me?" he asked as i looked at him, slightly confused.

"what?"

"what you've seen" he said as my confusion turned into realisation.

"oh, i watched billy die" i said as his eyes widened but i just continued eating my food casually.

i forgot i was there.

i feel like this whole trauma thing just made me forget it, but.

i dont know, i can picture him dying, so i was there.

and then it hit me, billy was shouting my name.

"does- it not like, affect you?" he asked.

"what do you mean?"

"you just said it so casually like it means nothing to you"

"it's the people that were there that acted like i was..." i said, "not there? i guess, and that kind of made me feel like i wasn't there" i said.

"what?"

i sighed.

"i remember running into star court mall, because dustin told me to through the walkie talkie. he said he needed my help although i was no good for help, especially with those upside down monsters. i came running in and saw billy, el and this massive mind flayer behind them." eddie nodded as i already felt tears but quickly wiped them away as he watched.

"billy was... on top of el, he was, almost like the mind flayer in a way. and then um-" i breathed shakily.

"i really fucking hate talking about this" i sighed and looked up to avoid tears.

"billy stood up and faced the mind flayer after el had told him some things that... changed his mind i think? and that's when i ran in"

"mhm.."

"the mind flayer stretched its fucking- i don't know what it was but um- billy caught into the mind flayer, but the mind flayer had more than just two arms, it was massive."

i sighed.

"and then billy was grabbed from all sides up to his waist, black- red, i don't even know but, liquid rushed out of his mouth and then-" i whispered fuck as i wiped my tears, eddie now comforting me.

"then the mind flayer just- stabbed his chest, let go of him and we all watched billy fall to the ground like a ragdoll" i said as eddie now just hugged me.

i didn't cry, i was just tearing up as he hugged me tighter every time i tried to catch my breath that i lost

"they didn't realise you were there?"

"they did.." i said as i let go off his grip.

"but they just- ran? they ran to max, that's for sure..." i said, thinking.

"and they went to billy after, max was crying whilst el was there to comfort her, but- it was like i was never there, so that's why they find me so irrelevant"

"you're not irrelevant y/n"

"i am." i sighed, wiping my tears.

"that's beside the point" i said, handing him the empty bowl, "thank you" i said.

he took the plate and still looked at me as i just watched the TV before he exhaled heavily and went to the kitchen to clean the bowls.

it was quiet and all we could hear was the movie playing on the TV. it was a classic, West Side Story.

i would sniff from time to time, only thinking about what i've just said to eddie.

i was scared he would tell everyone, but i think i could trust him enough not to tell anyone.

i stood up and went to the kitchen counter where he finished cleaning up and i took another pill nancy bought me.

i grabbed the small plastic bottle and started to unscrew the top as clicking sounds emerged from the lid.

"what are you-" eddie snatched the pills away.

"what? eddie i need some"

"you have JUST had some" he said, placing the pills in my pocket.

"i'm sure taking another pill won't hurt?"

"same pill? 30 minutes apart? y/n you are so fucking clueless" he said, coming to me and grabbing my arms from behind and leading me back to the sofa.

"but i have a headache" i said.

"then go to sleep!" he said as he sat me down, and he sat himself down next to me.