Hi am hannah and I don't even understand myself... I have trust issues and gosh.. My fucking temper... I can't believe i am typing this... I have a very wild imagination.. Nobody know this... I keep this to myself.. I imagine things a lot with like more than 20 different occurance.. I imagine both the negative and positive things and sometimes what am sure would happen always happen...
I am like the mixture of fun, nerdy, angry, snobby, funny, nice, talented altogether.. At least I think so.. I am that kind of girl that loves girls dresses and would love to use makeups in future but also don't give a damn about what people say..
I dress to impress myself.. I love wearing jacket,sweaters and also. Hoodies a lot.. I think I need new ones.. Lol... My dream clothes is to wear a leather jacket... It can be either very long with buttons or short with buttons but long one is cool and also a leather skirt, a short one of course and a top.. A fitted top with some mother fucking long leather bootheels... And a white ribbon on my hair with reddish lip close and some makeups.... I would love cool in that.. No kidding.. 😂 😂.
I freaking love my attitude, I can put a lot of people in their place but sometimes even my anger is just too much that it makes me angry about myself....
What I hate most is when u act like u care and then u act like u don't and like that.. I hate that shit... I hate the feeling of being hurt... But I have experienced it and I still don't like It... I hate it when I am being ignored, I hate it when am not the first priority, I hate being lied to, I hate being accused of what I don't know anything about.. I hate being abused, I hate a lot of thing... I hate the way I am.... Lol.. Drastic turn
Okay so
I have an amazing bestie who got heartbroken with her bf that she really likes as hell and she is really hurt.. Actually he broke up with her with the most stupid reason.. We are far from each other but i want to help her but the fact that it looks like they were really In love and they broke up scared me...
What if I like someone with all my heart and soul and they just break my heart, I won't be able to cope with things again.. So that is the reason why I don't develop feelings
No matter what
I love alll kinds of movie, romance, action, fantasy, Indian, anime, Chinese movies... And the likes as long as it is interesting
I want to be an actress in future and an accounting... A chatared accountant.....
Sometimes even I don't understand myself and my life is anything but perfect and remember I said i don't develop feelings but I wanna but I can't... I don't even know if I like someone and I keep saying he is the one and then later stop at i don't think he is the one for me
..... Now shocking news I haven't dated anyone before.... Of course. Only when I belive it is time and if the person is perfect to me.. I hope that time is not too late.. I love u hannah but who are you?
U have not found urself yet... Find it
2nd October 2021
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MY DARK LUCID DREAMS (Depression and Anxiety)
RandomDARK POEMS In every human there is a depressing self, I'm sure whoever u are, u are tired of people saying "be patient it's gonna be okay". You just wanna die/leave/hurt yourself You keep thinking when would it be okay? But u are tired... Sw...
