It's been long I have written isn't it.... I know I know....... Well its 7th of December 7:37 2021...
Happy new month by the way... Life is not good... Is it?
Well I still hate her. Everyone says it is because am angry.. Dude I am not angry and I still freaking hates her....
I wonder sometimes if its my fault... Am I to blame...is it all my fault... Am I over thinking it... Do I look at things in a different dimension.. Am I wicked as she says.... Am I cruel
Do I do bad things intentionally.... Am I what she says am I
Would I ever see her as some one I can trust....oh I forgot to tell u notepad... Something happened...
So one annoying day my mother sent me to market to buy food stuff.. I came back pretty late... I bathe and rinsed the peppers...
I entered inside my house and heard a knock at the door... On getting there, I realised it was my neighbour.. He offered to enter into my HOUSE... My mind thought maybe he want movies or because of the air condition cause he does that when people are home .
But I was sooooo WRONG... He entered and told me he wanted a BJ... I looked at him with wide eyes but quickly positioned my eyes, act oblivious and I also thought... Hey he must be joking , he jokes a lot.. So I asked him what is that.. And he said I don't know wht it is.. I said yes and he said a freaking blowjob that he came here to have fun with me and his body is responding somehow and he doesn't understand why.... Grrrr I asked him are u joking... He said he was serious.. He looked serious.. I started to freak out like the fuck...
So I patiently told him to gtfofmh... (Get the fuck out of my house)
He said if not that I am holding a knife Nd peppers, he would have forced me.... FORCED Me, I would kill him and it would be written as self defence... Ok I can't kill him, lol.... I am just....
What would have Happened to me... Well I held my cool and told him to leave, he did not pay attention to my words, he came to my back and tried to kiss me.... Did I look like a slut....
I pushed him and held the knife to him, It happened so fast... I can't remember that part well... While holding the knife to his chest, I told him to get out, he was hesistent but he did.... I locked the door with a shaky hands...
I was shocked, confused and scared...i couldn't open the door when someone knocked again, I was scared until I heard it was someone else..... Till now I can't belive that happened.. I can't look it at him in the face and even put a smile.. I can't tell her also
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MY DARK LUCID DREAMS (Depression and Anxiety)
RandomDARK POEMS In every human there is a depressing self, I'm sure whoever u are, u are tired of people saying "be patient it's gonna be okay". You just wanna die/leave/hurt yourself You keep thinking when would it be okay? But u are tired... Sw...
