11 Dec 16:41
Using what I love the most to hurt me
Man, I fucking hate you so fucking much
Like I really hate you
Damn
This is not the first time you have done that shit
But I thought it was me overthinking it but u saying it the most.... I fucking hate u.. I hate the fact u gave birth to me.. I hate the fact God answered ur pathetic prayers and I was born.. I hate the fact that u have no fucking sympathy on me..... U saying shit like u hate me, u never want me born, u regret the fact that u birthed me... Girrl I hate the fact u exist also.....
Bcuz u are not acting like a fucking mother... U are acting like a bitvh who doesn't understand her daughter and put all the blame on u.... If I die, let me say this... Fuvk u a million times.... If I die cuz of u...i don't even know what to use to curse u, cuz am like if I am up there and see my curse working .. I would be sympathetic and hate myself for cursing u.. So I would hold my curse but what will happen is what u never know...... All I just want is ur worthless love, just love, act like it, show me it and let leave a happy life but u will be acting like...... I hate u from the depths of my heart.....i just... I regrets being born.. U have not given me any hope at all to still be alive..
The only shit u gave me when I committed suicide that u knew was if u die, u will go to hell fire and u will rot... I mean tf.... U know what at least hell is straight forward.. I also get to see God and u know what Fuvk this world also.... I am tired, real tired of everything.. I just want to die a peaceful death and never wake up.... I feel hurt, frustrated, tired, angry, sad and weak... Am tired God, everyone and anyone.. I am so tired....
16:50 2021 December
And also anybody that says shit like they don't understand me or critise me or say shit when u aren't living on my shoes....I mean this shit when I say u will bear the cross and continue living it.... U know live my shoes for at least 5 years and see if u can survive hell hole 🕳
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MY DARK LUCID DREAMS (Depression and Anxiety)
RandomDARK POEMS In every human there is a depressing self, I'm sure whoever u are, u are tired of people saying "be patient it's gonna be okay". You just wanna die/leave/hurt yourself You keep thinking when would it be okay? But u are tired... Sw...
