I like today
Today is different.. I don't know.. I cooked and I was freely so tired so I slept and i woke up.. Followed my mom to her work and when she is done went back and I got home around 17pm, that's 5pm...and well I would eat soon... I did not eat since cause I don't want to, I feel okay and well I feel okay. I hope that's how the whole day would be.. I hope to make oats for myself.....
Continuation
Well its 10: 38...i did not make oats unfortunately.. Its finished... I knew today was too good to be true... Yupp... The ending wasn't peaceful.. At all.. My arms hurt a lot... I dipped my head inside water losing oxygen and doing it over and over again.. I used my anger on my self to feel better... I was pissed...
So I kept putting my head inside the water over and over and over again... And p.s its not something horrible.. I am used to it.. Really.. Its like a fun activity, I do when I get hurt.. I guess I stopped and I am starting it again.. So.. Well that's it. I fucking hate this fucked up life.... What's the use of living when u won't enjoy life?
I thought of killing myself right there right now but I stopped myself and decided to just do something to calm my nerves down.. I wonder why I wrote this things.. Maybe someone would read it or maybe just maybe things would be okay one day and I would read this... I have always thought that one day I should just lose my memories.. I would be so happy seriously
Try to keep up guys, my mom screwed up again
11th of NOVEMBER 2021
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MY DARK LUCID DREAMS (Depression and Anxiety)
De TodoDARK POEMS In every human there is a depressing self, I'm sure whoever u are, u are tired of people saying "be patient it's gonna be okay". You just wanna die/leave/hurt yourself You keep thinking when would it be okay? But u are tired... Sw...
