Astonishing Us

XXXII

My blurry eyes cannot see a thing but the sparkling lights of the club, that is how hard I am crying at the moment, my shoulders are severely shaking, as my chest is heavily moving up and down with the chaotic way of my breathing at the moment.

My heart is painfully beating, my chest is tight and heavy and I feel like my stomach is being twisted in pain.

I couldn't see clearly but the picture of Ridge kissing Snow is very clear in my mind that is torturing me.

I could hear mumblings, whispers by the people who recognized me but I couldn't think straight to care at all, I just cried the pain out, not caring if some of those sparkling lights are flashes of recording camera, all I just care is the betrayal and pain I am feeling at the moment.

Ano pang paniniwalaan ko? Eto na, kitang-kita na ng dalawa kong mga mata.

I caught him doing the thing he is denying he have done. He fooled me, all this time he was just fooling me. Even earlier when he was talking to me, he was just playing and having fun fooling me, was he laughing when he told me those words to deceive me earlier?

Was it the reason why he didn't face me all the time he was talking? Was I mistaken when I thought he was crying like me because of his shaking shoulders when he talked to me earlier?

I felt my knees weakened as I was about to fall on the ground just like what happened inside our room earlier when a strong set of arms caught my body before it could even fell on the floor, his baritone voice lingers my ears as he called out my name.

"Aether!" I was wondering why is it familiar, why does the feeling of being inside his arms feels familiar, crying I looked up at him and that is when his voice registered my mind as I stared at him with blurry eyes...

It's Jaime...

Mabilis kong binaklas pagkakayakap niya sa akin pakiramdam ko wala na akong mapagkakatiwalaan sa kanilang lahat.

Kahit nanghihina ay pinilit kong tumakbo palabas ng Club.

Pakiramdam ko lahat ng tao sa paligid ko ay sasaktan lamang ako sa pagkakataong ito.

Ang sakit, ang sakit-sakit.

Akala ko tapos na akong masaktan kapag nahanap ko na si Ridge, pero hindi pala, dahill mas lalo lang palang pipira-pirasohin ang puso ko sa aking madadatnan.

Dahil sa nag-uulap ang aking mga mata napakalabo ng aking paningin habang pinipilit kong ihakbang ng mabilis ang aking mga paa, dahil na din sa panginginig at panghihina ng aking mga tuhod ay kanda talisod akong tumakbo palabas ng Club Deseo.

I bumped to many people who seemed to recognized me, the lights from the flashes of cameras are the only thing I could see aside from the blurry image of surroundings.

"Aether!" Jaime called me out again, but I continued running as I am crying.

Akala ko maaayos pa, akala ko magiging okay pa ang lahat, pero hindi, dahil hindi totoo lahat ng pinakita at pinarinig sa akin ni Ridge.

Mula noon pa hanggang ngayon, wala siyang pinakita at pinaramdam sa akin na totoo. Lahat ng iyon pagpapanggap.

I feel like the air inside my chest are being rubbed out of it, nahihirapan akong huminga dahil sa paninikip at pananakit ng aking dibdib, pati pagkapagod sa pilit kong pagtakbo palayo na para bang sa pamamagitan non ay matatakasan ko ang sakit ay mas lalong pinapasikip ang aking dibdib.

Habol ko ang aking hiningang tila unting-unting nauubos hanggang sa isang nakakabulag na ilaw ang sumalubong sa akin kasabay ng hiyawan sa aking likuran at malakas na busina sa aking harapan.