Pleasing

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( his pov is short but will return back to him later in this chapter :) )

MARCEL POV

I have to choose between seeing Jennifer or tavante. It would be easy to bring Jennifer along but this is different, and she's sick.

I need to check this necklace shit out though...
It'll be quick.

JENNIFER POV

I slowly walk to my apartment blasting my sad music. My mind was clouded with confused thoughts. I didn't know how to feel! We aren't even together!

My legs move quicker and I run up the stairs to my apartment. I'm overreacting for flipping sake. Zenday was out for the week...

She would hold me without asking questions..

I miss my brothers... mom.

I waited 20 minutes sort of... hoping Marcel would show up. But he never did.

But he never disappoints me. He's only done it... twice I guess.

What if he thinks we're like... friends with benefits. I plop on my bed shrugging my bag off. I wipe my tears and sigh taking a deep breathe.

I'm being so dramatic right now.

What if he only likes my body that's why he doesn't want to date. Why does this have to happen AGAIN.

I shake my head and stare at my buzzing phone. It was Zenday checking up on me and I was quick to make a small, tiny lie saying I'm alright. I whine and softly throw my phone on the floor.

A tiny sob comes out and my body deflates. He doesn't like me like that. I get up wiping my tears and quickly grab 2 towels in our mini pantry. Pantry for towels, heh. I turn the shower head on and strip looking at myself in the mirror.

I scan my face and I play with my ruffled curls. Why can't I be pretty. Pretty for him to like me...

I blink away and step into the shower.

I did the regular in the shower and quickly hop out. I know if I stay in there too long, I'll never get out. My feet plot on the wooden floor to my bedroom.

I take my hair out the towel and drop my bottom one. I quickly slide on an oversized t-shirt. It took a good 5 minutes to find my brush...

I brush my curls and add the right products before combing it out. I noted that I'm running out hair products... jesus.

I could hear the door unlock and open from the squeaky hinges. Why is Zenday home so early?

I shuffle my feet across the floor and open my bedroom door. It was actually quite late by the time
I finished eating some cereal.

9:37 PM.

My fingers find the light switch, so I flip it seeing Marcel. He's leaning against the counter looking at me. "Marcel..." I mumble. He walks over and I quickly take a step back crossing my arms. "Marcel you should leave." My voice came out small. "Why? I knew something was wrong." His voice came out rough, raspy.

"Marcel." I warn staring into his eyes. They were dilated and low gaze was there. "No." He challenges stepping forward. My head lowers and I tug at my shirt. "Marcel what a-are we?" I ask, and he licks his lips. "I'm not sure." He responds.

MARCELS POV

"What a-are we?"

Holy shit, what are we?

I didn't even know, I never thought about it.

I don't even do relationships. I don't do this type of shit. I'm not that type of guy...

One girl can't change me. There's no way she can't do that. Jennifer can't.

"I... jennifer." I start not even sure what to say. "Why do you randomly ask?" I question trying to find something from her eyes, her body. "You touched me... y-you were my first flipping kiss! I- we- we do these things that couples do. I... I can't even say we're dating to my friends." She whispers. For fucks sake. Her friends.

"Is this because of your friends?" I ask tilting my head. "W-why do you rush into physical touch but n-not dating. Do you only like my body? I'm really sorry. I- I try to stay calm! I don't want to feel this way, I-I know you don't like me crying! I know! I'm trying to fix it!" Her voice one's higher and I could see those frustrated tears lip down her cheek.

"Jennifer. I love all of you. I don't like to see you in pain that's why I get so tense." I explain brushing those tears off her face "I... don't do relationships." The words just flow out my mouth. Her body practically deflated. "But I do Marcel. That's the problem." Jennifer says.

I close my eyes taking a silent breath. "Merde." I mumble. "I can't lose you Jennifer. I also don't want to mess up and hurt you." I say, mostly to myself. "M-maybe you should just, we should just take a break." She speaks. "So, you can think.."

A break?

To think?

"No." I say.

This chapter is short! I know 😩