Pleasing

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JENNIFER POV

I open my eyes seeing only blurs. I sigh from the ringing in my ears. Like those moments in movies when someone wakes up in the middle of the hospital. Or when they've been hit. Noises start to be heard and I cringe trying to cover my ears. "Mm." I groan.

  "Jennifer." "Jenny!" "Doll!"

I try and mumble a shh.

"Chaton."

Marcel...

I keep my eyes closed and feel my body slowly gain control. Ew ew! Pins and needles. "Come on wake up.. open those pretty eyes for me." I hear and I feel a hand cup my cheek and I groan. Cold hand! 
  I slowly flutter my eyes open and cover my eyes. "Too.." My mouth is so dry.. "brig-bright." I cough up. Quickly after it's dark and I huff. My saliva won't hydrate me..

   "Jennifer.." I hear and I stare at him. "Merde. You're awake." He sighs and I look away. What they said never left me. "Hey.. what's up? What do you need Chaton?" He asks making me look at him. "Water." I say clearing my throat. And he nods getting up. Once he left I slowly sit up, Ahh I need to stretch! I look around seeing I'm back to wherever I was last at in marcels bed.

   I slowly grab for my phone seeing it's been a week. Over 30 missed calls from Zenday and 5 from my brothers. I sigh. I'll surely be home soon.
   I put my phone back down rubbing my eyes and Marcel comes back in with a glass. He hands it to me and I down it quickly wiping my mouth. I quickly thank him as well and he just hums with a worried look. "I know what you wanted from me." I say turning my head away.

  "What?" He asks.

"You guys just wanted to get closer to the necklace... " I whisper and he sighs face palming. Shaking his head. "Not even close to the truth." He chuckles. Laughing for what? "I didn't know you were the holder until a week ago when I met with the guys who kidnapped you." He explains and I shake my head.
   

   "I need space. I need time." I pause "from you." I gulp and it was silent. "Why"- you're- Marcel- you're dangerous! I- I was kidnapped and Al-almost killed! We aren't even dating.. you don't even know if you want me officially. I jus.. I just need to clear my head. I want a restart. Hearing the truth hurt me a lot and those feelings can't go away." I say wiping my tears.
   Stay strong.

  "It's too much for me. I- I am and was so thankful for you and what you've given me.. and I want to do more! B-but all of this.. it scared me." I whisper shaking my head and I earn a sigh. I haven't even looked at him and here I was...

   I slowly turn my gaze to him and he looked horrible. My eyebrows furrow. He nods slowly "I'm sorry. I'll give you whatever you need. If this is what you want that's.. that's okay." His body was tense. Even though he tried to hide it I could see some tears come from his eyes. I frown.

  "I can drive you home if you would like." He says and I nod slowly. "Th-thanks." I say softly and he gets up walking out without another word. We aren't Eve together and I felt like I just had my first heartbreak/break up.

I messed up!

MARCEL POV

  She shuts the door and opens her mouth and shuts it. "I..." she sighs. "C-can we.. I." I waited.. and waited for whatever she wanted to say. Seeing her, being with her, around her is all I needed. "Can we hug.. before I-I go. I know it's- I know it's random and not the best time but.. I still really really like you. I'm just hurt..." she looks down seeing her body droop.

   I get out the car and instantly wrap my arms around her torso. And she was quick to do the same. A sob comes out from her. I rub her back and kiss the top of her head.

We stood like this for almost an hour. Not a word said.

She pulls away and wipes her nose. "I- oh.. I'm sorry your shirt." She frowns wiping her face as well. And I shake my head. I couldn't resist putting that beautiful curled hair into a loose bun. "I just want you okay.. Please tell me when you are. When you're ready." I mumble and she nods.

  And she started pulling away. Walking farther and farther away from me.

I went straight to the liquor store. And drove home.

I wasn't even mad at her. I was mad at myself. I didn't keep my promises. How could I do that?

  To her! Jennifer.

I walk to my room past the room filled with guys celebrating the death of the 2 males. Everyone was cheering, blasting music. Being absolutely annoying.

I shut my door and sigh.

I'm fucking loosing it. I've fucking lost it all. When have I cried over a girl? My mom was the only one. Why Jennifer?

I don't cry.

I shake everything off me and down the few nips I've gotten. Consuming half of the bottles of liquor. Not caring.

  I  want to be drunk alone.

My door opens and I groan rubbing my temples. "What the fuck do you want?" I scoff not even turning to look with my back to whoever.
      The bed dips and arms wrap around my shoulders. "It's me.. what's wrong?" Nora purrs into my ear. I'm not that drunk. I shrug her hands off me. "What's wrong? Do you need anything? A distraction.. maybe?" She teases.

  God I'm not even that big of a dick to.. well..

I move closer to her face. "You know what I need?" I ask slowly and she bites her lip.

  "I need you... to get the fuck out of my room. Off my lap." I say pushing her away and she scoffs. "Boring." She comments closing the door.

I can't do this to Jennifer.

I love her