Pleasing

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2 DAYS LATER, Night before the event

JENNIFER POV

I was pacing with Zenday trying to calm me down. "I-I didn't think this through!" I groan with tears in my eyes. "Jennifer..." she whispers at me with a frown. We stare at the 3 pregnancy tests as we wait. My body was jelly. I was shaking.

Morning sickness, definitely different food cravings, dizzy, cramping, and swollen breasts. Holy crap.

I slide on the floor with a racing heart. "Am I ready?" I ask out loud to myself. "Jenny..." she tries to speak but I groan.

Do I want a child? I dont know! Or am I ready for a child? Doubt it. Would I be okay with one? If he is.

I dont want to run away from my child like my mother. I dont want to do this on my own...

But me and Marcel aren't even married! Why would we have a child?

I look down at my hands and sigh.

4 seconds in.... Hold for 7.... Breathe out for 8.

The timer goes off and Zenday takes a deep breathe before sitting up from the bed and looking down at them. She bites her lip and gives no reaction. "Jennifer." She comes up to me and wipes my tears. "You're gonna be a mother." Zenday whispers. I cry out with mixed emotions but my heart bursts into its broken protected shell. "I can't believe it..." I whimper.

"It's okay. Listen, if Marcel doesn't want to keep it you have me! I will always be with you. You know that right?" Zenday cups my face and I close my eyes trying to stop the tears. "Thank you." I hiccup. Me and zenday sat on the floor for what felt like eternity.

I played with the rug as Zenday went to make me some food. How do I tell him? He's coming over tonight... how long have I been pregnant? Jesus! My phone buzzes next to me and the name on it makes my heart stop. What do I do? I turn my phone off and stumble up on my feet. I collect the tests and see them all with the positive symbol on it. I take a picture for proof just in case, before shoving them in the trash and cover them with other things to hide them.

I put my hair in a low bun and wet my face so it looks like I wasn't crying. I can say I got lotion in my eye or something. I walk out my room and see zenday already leaning against the counter with the oven preheating.

    I quickly change into some pj shorts and a loose tank top.
Zenday wraps herself in a jacket before opening the door. "Oh, hey Marcel. I was just about to leave, Jennifer is in the kitchen." I hear Zenday say before the front door shuts.

Marcels large figure comes to the door frame as I lean against the counter. "Babygirl." His voice deep as his arm hangs against the frame. Classic mafia dude move. "Hi-hey- Jesus- hi." I stutter, swallowing thickly.

I push off the counter to walk over to him. But, I saw the blood splotches. He had came back from work...

Panic runs through me as I scan his body. "No, baby, I'm fine." Marcel realizes as he wipes the redness away.

He pushes off the frame and walks closer to lessen the distance. "How are you feeling?" I could smell the scotch, ice, that pine tree smell. No wonder I was addicted.